i always wanted to say something out loud... i miss you grandma...

it been 9-10months since she has gone... things have changed in her house... her valuables are still well kept in the antique cupboard of hers.. all still in it's place.. the rest are all thrown away.. her bed, matress which cost about a few hundred of dollar.. bought specially for her, to support her back... her clothes are almost all burnt when she was cremated...

i sense something is lost whenever i visit my uncle.. i miss her telling me it is dinner time.. "mei, take money and go down buy dinner.." mei, take money buy newspaper" i also miss her telling my mum.. "ah mei, is so guai." is miss her coughing sound, miss seeing her sitting at her pink chair.. watching tv....

in life.. we tend to take everything for granted.. when your love one is around... you tend to neglect them... just by saying.. i'm busy and today cannot.. but what are we really busy about..?

now that she is gone... i feel the sense of spending time with family is very impt.. now i like going to my uncle's house for visiting.. i love to go there.. i can find what i have lost when my grandma is around... it just brings back the childhood days when i was growing up there my 7 other cousins..

it's just : there is no other place like home and being home..

other then my emo post today... there's another thing i wanna say now is : i really hate being at work this week!