i always wanted to say something out loud... i miss you grandma...

it been 9-10months since she has gone... things have changed in her house... her valuables are still well kept in the antique cupboard of hers.. all still in it's place.. the rest are all thrown away.. her bed, matress which cost about a few hundred of dollar.. bought specially for her, to support her back... her clothes are almost all burnt when she was cremated...

i sense something is lost whenever i visit my uncle.. i miss her telling me it is dinner time.. "mei, take money and go down buy dinner.." mei, take money buy newspaper" i also miss her telling my mum.. "ah mei, is so guai." is miss her coughing sound, miss seeing her sitting at her pink chair.. watching tv....

in life.. we tend to take everything for granted.. when your love one is around... you tend to neglect them... just by saying.. i'm busy and today cannot.. but what are we really busy about..?

now that she is gone... i feel the sense of spending time with family is very impt.. now i like going to my uncle's house for visiting.. i love to go there.. i can find what i have lost when my grandma is around... it just brings back the childhood days when i was growing up there my 7 other cousins..

it's just : there is no other place like home and being home..

other then my emo post today... there's another thing i wanna say now is : i really hate being at work this week!

work is getting lighten.. guess it's because the year end is around the corner, which is good because hoilday are the best times to relax our mind body and soul..

this coming Saturday is the marks of 3 years and5 months, time really files and i can feel i'm getting older.. just got the approval of getting a house last month..

this means it's time to save money to pay for the next stage in life... going to make it my dream home.. a place where i can be proud of.. i guess this the most expensive thing i can buy in this lifetime,...

time is also ticking.. going to start planning for my big day in 2 years time.. something which i have been looking forward to since i was young.. wearing s beautiful white gown walking down the red carpet... catching the lime light for the day.. actually i have already done my guest list.. total i need 13 tables to have all my guest to come.. wow.. i can't wait..!

but i will not bear to leave this beautiful home that i have been growing up in for the past 20 over years.. all the tears and laughter is what it had filled with..
now i want to say . i love you mummy and daddy! =)

i'm going to save alot and work harder on loosing my weight to be a beautiful bride for my special day. =)

Haven’t been blogging for the past 1 year.. almost forgot that I have a blog to update until dear reminded me 2 days ago, he said: “I went to see your blog yesterday.. you very long nv update already hor…” which then I remembered, I had a blog…

1 year is almost gone.. so many things had happened and is happening..
Attended S.H.E concert in April , S.H.E is the one. Also attended Liu Qian’s magic world tour show.. the only 2 concert I want to attend but no money is Jay Chou and Luo Zhi Xiang’s.. hai nvm.. sure have next time.

Got proposed by dear in April.. I lost my grandma in May… the most devastated thing happened in my life… but it’s been 114 days already.. I will move on..

Going Bangkok tomorrow with Lorraine.. it’s the 3rd company trip I’m going with her.. I bet this will be good too.. and in another month plus time.. I’m going to HONGKONG!!
Also going to get my turn to choose a house next month..

Busy October.. going to clean up grandma house too.. packing and painting and washing…
I got to say this year.. it’s a fruitful year for me.. except for the lost of my grandma..

Next year is going to be better.. planning to settle down….

what a day..

brouught my nephew, JunHan to watch Alvin and the chip munks today.. that naughty boy was rather a good boy today.. not as naughty as other days...

dear and I went to fetch him at 1130 from my cousin's house.... i went up to fetch him.. den he said he wanted to go 7-11 to buy something which in the end he played this game which need to us the game card.. let him play 15mins den we left... headed to Tiong Bahru Plaza... ate KFC for lunch den went popular to buy a card album for him to put his game cards..

after movie he said he wanted to go library.... there was a mobile library which he saw when we drove in... he chose 6 books... i think he will spend these few last days of 2009 reading them....


my cousin and wife together with his lil brother came to my grandma house... had dinner there..
dear left early cos he had an appointment... played with YingHan and also Junhan.. and they left at 73o cos my cousin had to go OG at bugis to exchange 1 pants...


a new year is coming.. seems like my all the resolutions for my 2009 was completed...
got my licence at last..

Next Year's Resolution is simple :

1. Save More Money
2. Wish for good health and wealth to everyone i know
3. Hope to settle down by the 3rd quater of the year..
4. Hope i can get a good house from HDB


that's all

it's a fruitful christmas so far..

i finally got a chance to meet up with my 3 very good friends.. My ganster kor kor, adrian, rockstar faye, and also speedy jasmin.. ha ha ... had a lil bbq gathering with them yesterday at adrian house..

we waited for jasmin to come at 12am.. and i left the house at around 130am.. had so much laughter and joy with them.. really glad that i spend my time there..

Faye is happily married.. Adrian have a gf.. so happy for them..

it was a lil christmas gathering but a warmth and fruitful one..


I did take picture with my camera.. cos faye camera is better.. they have planned to go batam together, but i dunno i can a not.. cos dey want sweetie to come along, but it is difficult.. cos his dad is still in hospital.. and it is difficult for him to leave the spore even it is just 8 hours..

I dun wan to spoil the plan so i just kept quiet... but i think i have to miss this rare chance..


Christmas dinner is also done with lorraine and my company of colleagues.. we went Regent Hotel for our dinner, we also got present from Lorraine this year.. A purple gem pendent from citigems.. it was so nice... in return we also bought her a crystal watch from swatch.. it is very bling bling too.. haha

This year's count down is goin to be a peaceful one.. we are all heading to lorraine's new condo.. it is a penhouse..! haha.. it is goin to be great..

Here are some pictures from my office :



- The Restaurant


-My Boss/Our mother


- Agnes, MeiMei and Me


-Kaye = Zarah and Ah Deh = Jecel


-Jindee = Lorraine's daughter


-All of us


-Our Christmas Tree


-Our Candy House(Front View)


-Back view

it's been already about 3 weeks since ben's dad is in hospital...

yesterday was another good news day.. his dad had is dylasis safely and successfully... because i came to know that he was actually had problems with the dylasis previously.. his dad opened his eyes yesterday, i think he knows who are we.. his body and head was moving and most of the time, not like before.. i really hope he would grant a speedy recovery before christmas.. his dylasis was going to go on through out the night.. for 12 hours.. dear god please give his life back and give him strenght to pull through this critical moment of his life..

we are still continuing to pray until he recovers fully...

another good news is that, ben and i can start balloting for a house, we actually got the one that I like most.. Punggol Spectra... it's a 4 four room HDB condo concept with balcony.. I really want that.. but ben said he is still thinking because we have to wait for 5 years to get to move in..... well.. I think 5 years is not very long ahead... we just have to celebrate... 5 birthdays.. 5 valentine days... 5 new year... 5 of every festivel... which is pretty fast.. Well, i really like the concept of the house, privacy is there... convenience is there.. I dun see what else can we think to reject it... it's another phase of my life..

today i'm on leave.. for a personal reason.. after settling my stuff i will be heading to the hospital to see ben's dad..

it's been a long time since i've blog..

many things are happening around me.. events are coming up one by one.. work load is getting more and more as the days passed.. for the preparation of the event of course..

lucky thing i have meimei and agnes to help me with it if not i'll be super stress... but of course lorraine is also helping and advising us.. well.. as a team we can make anything and everything possible..

I'm hoping the days will pass faster so the event can be over and we can consentrate on our corporate secretairal work and also have a jolly good time until next year july comes.. well it goes round and round...

well... as for my post on face book, it is a heart breaking moment. sweetie's dad was admitted to hospital on 15th of November 2009. it all happen on the same day morning when ben's dad was having an asthma atttack and he had breathing difficulties... ben had brought him to see their family doctor and was ok from then, until 330pm that day.. his sister suddendly shouted for us.. ben rushed to the room to see what happened. His dad's nose was bleeding, he ask what happened,, his dad said he was giddy and had knock his nose on the wall.. he was breathing difficultly as that time.. sweetie call for ambulance and it came about 5-10mins later.. his dad was admittied since then. From the point he was on the was to hospital until he was rolled in to the A&E he was consious, after a 45mins wait, the doctor came out, we thought he could be discharged, but no bad news was received. The doctor said he had a minor heart attack and it actually caused his heart to stop beating for 20 seconds.. the doctor said they had to immediatly do a minor operation which call in short, ballooning.. to remove the blockage at his heart..

we waited for another 1 hour plus till we could see him.. when we could see him, he was attached to so many pipes.. ben and I was lost... ben's sis, brother, mum and brother's gf cried... I cired after leaving the ward. Last week was really a hectic week... and also a very crutial week... his heart was not beating again for 30 secs for 2 days... the doctor said is he had too many heart attacks,, he may loose his memory or become vegetable when he wakes up.. these is not what we want of course..

it's so heart aching to see a person who is consious when he was admitted and not seeing him for 4 hours and the next you see in front of you is him lying there with so many pipes attached...

Saturday was some good news day... his dad opended his eyes when ben's sister called him, "Pa"
they was shocked and frighten, his legs was shaking and his head was moving.. we ask the doctor was happend and he said they inserted little Ma Zhui Yao.. but it is good to see his dad eyes opened, that day we were all there until 1030pm... but his brother and gf stayed on. i finally saw smiles on his sister and brother's face..

Ben's sibliings and me are praying since the day his dad was admitted.. we really hope to see mirical happend and he could be walking out of the hospital soon..

i'm on mc today.. coughing since last friday, but today it got worse.. my throat was so painful when i got up... i was preparing to go work.. but i had slight fever after i bathe.. my mum ask me to stay home rest... and take mc.. i changed back and went back to slp... going to see doctor later at 2pm.. monday mornings, clinics are always packed..

life is changing around ben and me.. less shopping, less movies, but it is okay.. his dad needs them most at this point... I'll stay strong to stand by them..

yesterday, i bought herbal tea for them.. i think i'll learn how to cook soup for them.. =)