waiting for the whole month.. it's my shopping spree.. haha


had a very busy day today.. sweetie came to meet me for lunch.. during my work.. so sweet.. nobody did tt to me.. haha.. thank you dear.. i know it's a long way for u.. appreciated it.. :) went back to work frm lunch.. appt for lorriane was full.. clients came one aft another.. meimei and i were entertaning like mad too.. but luckily all were nice and long time clients.. so still alright.. chatted and made us laugh also.. haha.. i left work at 615..


bought a handphone plastic case.. but it's lousy.. cos the plastic covered the speaker of my fone and i can't really hear when it rings.. damm! goin to get a new one tomoro



goin to buy max 4 tops.. 2 for work 2 for outing.. a small lil bag for the dinner i'm acutally not suppose to go with B.T :P den B.T present.. cannot forget.. den tt's all.. saving up for my prac as a promise i made to myself..


meeting the parents this sunday.. haha.. hmm ya.. dun worry everything will be fine.. haha.. and YA!! i'm dying my hair too this sunday.. RED!! more updates about sunday.. interesting day..

one of my fave songs from backstreet boys.. yes i will...

hmmm time to write down my shopping list for July..


1. Liquid foundation + powder foundation + blusher ( must get)
2. top for my work and outing. ( limited only to 5 pcs)
3. new pair of jeans my be black.. (optional cos seldom wear jeans go out)
4. 2 pairs of heels for work..
5. 1 set of swim suit.. ( for my outing @ sentosa)
6. shorts for my sentosa outing also


ps: this is for myself.. haha.. cos i scared i forget.. but i dun think i'll buy all jus get impt stuff.. sat is my last day for GSS shopping.. must grab! i'll do all my shopping this sat.. aft tt.. jus save up my money and go for my prac..


things to do this month also..

1 dying my hair.. i lack too much..
2 go trim my eye brow..

these are 2 most impt thing also.. haha.. ok tt's all.. hope i can remember.. =P

here are the pictures we taken yesterday.. still waiting for yinhui to send me.. haha













< sweetie @ work >

this song is jus for u sweetie.. my all time fav.. anyway any song by her is my fave.. haha.. winks!

wat a walking sat i had.. haha.

lorraine didn't came in today.. as expected from yesterday.. cos her daughter told me that they are goin KL over the weekend.. yup.. as usual.. she will sit on the chair playing with it for a while before she leaves for sch.. very pretty and cute lil ger..


today work was ok.. did the same routine.. a few clients came only today.. ha.. aft work i met my sweetie.. he was jus on time.. ha ha.. we had our lunch and we walked around the bugis area to Raffles City.. just to pass the time till 430.. cos i was meeting jasmin to pass her the photos taken on our previous outings..


sweetie and i walked to towards the counter but didn't see jasmin.. so i called novwell.. and she asked me to go up club first.. and i did.. she came out and brought us in.. and i had a glass of all time fav.. apple juice.. hha.. sweetie was treat the place like his house.. watchin sports channel on the comfy sofa at the back of the club.. haha.. and we even take a pic there.. haha.. asked novwell to call jasmin for me.. but she was not free at the moment and ask me to stay there to wait for her.. i was there for 30mins or so.. and called jasmin again.. and she will be up in a few mins.. it was my first time seeing her in her new uniform.. so looked so professional.. i'm proud of her.. cos she deserved this promotion..



den acc her for our regualr chicken rice session.. yup.. really glad i met up with her today.. really missed her alot..


aft which.. sweetie and i went bugis to meet up with daphne and yinhui.. for our planning about the up coming chalet.. all seems to be well planned. excited about it.. cosi can see sun rise with sweetie.. my first time.. goin on a chalet with a love one.. i guess it will be fun cos the gang is goin too.. hha.. goin to be noisy as ever.. haha.. 4 for us laze around at suntec's mac... for 2 hours.. laughed alot.. until yin hui cried.. haha...


walked around the mall.. toys r us.. Harvey Norman.. den car exhibition.. and minitoons.. den we had no plans and headed home..


on the way we saw this beautiful fountian.. it's jus so beautiful.. u've got to see it urself.. we have taken alot of pics there.. and ya we spent 30 mins there too..

tt's the last place we went..



really enjoyed myself today.. thank you dear..

it's offical.. i'm attatched..



i dunno how to phrase it.. i jus feel happy everyday.. it's a new sign of happiness.. i nv smiled so much everyday repeatedly aft knowing ben.. he gave me a diff kinda feeling of happienes everytime i see his msges.. or when he msn me.. i jus feel so reborn now.. a brand new begining of life..


as planned.. ben and i went out yesterday.. met me downstairs my office.. and we walked to bugis to have our dinner at fish & co.. aft which went to look of camera batteries.. and headed to esplanade.. a place so relaxing and quiet.. it was all so simple.. den as we were lookin for a place to sit.. this uncle came to ask.. " Would u like to take a boat ride?" Ben asked.. and u all know me.. i'm anything to anything.. haha.. so he made the decision and we took the 30 mins boat ride... there were only us and another mother and son.. so it was lucky to say.. it was peacful...


aft 15mins of the ride.. he said.. "actually i have something for you" i was like " what?" he took out this box frm perlini's silver and said it was for me.. he opened it up and showed me.. of course i was shocked.. cos i nv expected anything.. and came a ques.. "can u be me offical girlfriend?" cos apperently.. i was still not ready and told him tt he's stil in the waiting list.. i said yes.. and accepted the gift.. he wore it for me.. but i took it out aft tt.. cos i was afraid it wil drop.. haha.. ya..


what made me accept him.. i also dunno wat's the real reason.. something just tells me he's the one i'm waiting for.. i'm taking everything easy.. and i'm not gonna change myself nor i want ben to change for me to suit each other.. i like the way he is and tt's the reason made me fall for him.. just be our ownself..


To Ben:

I'm gald that we got this fate to know one another..and i'm gald tt fate brought us together.. you have made me smile and happy from day one... nothing seems to fail for now.. i'm gald u step in the chance for my b'dae to ask me out.. if not i wouldn't know wat was our feelings towards each other.. my feelings were even straighten out aft u ask if i missed u.. i nv knew a simple question can make me so deep into my tots.. i really missed u.. even now.. i know my sunshine is coming up.. and the sunshine is u.. u are my ans to the ques of who will grab my hands and walk towards a brighter day frm that very spot of hell.. u are the reason for me to forget my past.. u are the reason for my happier days.. u are the reason for me to fall in love again.. u are the light tt i've been waiting for.. i will cherish and treasure every moment u put in my memories.. and it shall be a story of our own.. i'll be the princess and you'll be the prince.. we shall face everything together..







To my Friends:

I'm glad that u all are happy and supportive towards this.. I promise i will not dissappear without any news of myself.. as a promised i made to jasmin.. this promise is for all of u too.. i'll keep in touch with every single one of u like b4.. u all are my treasures of gems and gold that are hard to find.. I love every single one of u.. Tania, Cindy, Grace, Faye, Jasmin, Adrian, Kath, Novwell, Yinhui & Daphne.. 10 of u...

wow.. wat a weekend.. haa.. went out on both days.. it's even better.. get to see sweetie too.. haha..

hmm.. sat.. met yinhui and daphne.. cos we went to get stuff before the sentosa trip.. yup.. to my surprise.. sweetie msg me and ask what time we gers leaving.. so i call him.. and he said he is comin.. of course with jimmy and weiqiang.. while waiting for daphne to finish her work.. yinhui and i went to bugis street to buy my stuff first.. yup.. aft which.. we met daphne and headed to V8... a cafe whihc i always like to have my meals at.. haha.. had our dinner while waiting for the guys to come.. hmm they came aft 30min aft we sat down. yupp... aft the had thier drinks and we settled the bill.. headed off to bugis street to start their shopping..


yinhui and daphne bought a bag.. i dunno wat the boys bought but they seems to enjoy shopping too.. haha.. aft walkin for an hour or so.. we rest our feets at the macdonald's at bugis junction.. and the rest of the gang started teasing me and sweetie.. watever la.. i'm used to it..

left home in diff ways.. well jimmy and sweetie went to play billard..


sunday morning came.. it was raining like cats and dogs.. i prayed twice.. once when i wake up and once b4 i left home.. didn't gave daphne, yinhui and weiqiang morning call cos dey all woke up themselves.. except for weiqiang.. i ask hui to call him.. haha.. but i called sweetie la.. hmm so i lost $9.. hai..


aft we met up had breakfast at the a near by hawker.. while waiting for kath..she didn't make it to meet us at first.. cos she woke up late.. but i needed to buy mac for this dear ger.. so i guess the time delayed and made her catch up in the end..

waited for the heavy rain to stopped.. we lay our mats on the ground at the bus terminal of beach station.. aft we did tt more ppl did it too.. copy cat lor.. i was my idea.. hai.. the boys played pokka cards.. hui also ..kath and i were reading the cleo mag tt i bought and dicussing about make up and stuff.. den tim also join in our ger talk.. haha.. ya..


waited for 2 hours.. and finally it stopped..packed walked quickly to siloso beach.. we lay our mats there under a tree.. the weather was so fine.. aft sweetie played his first game of soccer cum vollyball with them.. we took a stroll down and beach and sat at the rocks of sentosa.. way to the end.. we talked about lots of stuff.. his fishing and our lives.. ya.. i love the breeze and sounds of the sea.. it's my all time fav thing to do.. everything in my mind jus tone down listening to tt.. it was 4 yrs since i've done tt.. i guess i missed out alot of wat i like to do..


we walked back aft an hour.. cos i tot.. the rest will be worried for us.. we walked back.. and they we like.. dun reco us lor.. wat frends we have.. haha.. ya.. den i started to have my gastric pain.. the rest packed up and we headed off to wash up.. cos all was hungry.. the pain was bearable for me.. aft i change.. i went out first.. wah the boys were out there le.. sweetie was hold a cup of hot tea and a tuna puff for me.. ha.. i nv tot of tt.. i jus tot of having hot milo tt's all. but anyway.. tt was sweet la.. thanx =) i felt better aft tt.. went vivo.. walked to pets safari.. to relax ourselves in the aircon surroundings..


yi wen left first.. den ha dinner at the same hawker centre.. aft dinner.. kath went to meet eric.. wieqiang went home.. the rest of us headed to taka.. a place to find jimmy's "fren".. haha.. but mission failed.. but jimmy told me tim saw.. cos they went to look for her again aft we left for movie.. so not fair la..


yinhui daphne, sweetie and i went for movie.. we watched F4.. nice moive.. but daphne fell asleep a while.. i was eyes wide open.. dun wanan waste the 9.50.. haha..


really had a great time.. i'm tried of typing.. good nite..

boring day.. been slagging from morning aft i pack my cupboard.. give morning call to sweetie.. cos i tot he meeting his client at 1030...


came online frm 11 till now.. watched my vcd.. 6 more disc to go.. chated with sweetie.. den we were bored.. he played games.. i continue my vcd.. aft lunch chat again.. den kath came online.. and still talkin to her now.. hha


aft this goin bugis to buy stuff for my sentosa date with my new bunch of frends.. kath coming along too.. cos it was long planned together..


yesterday met up with cin.. tania.. shiya.. kiyoko and si ni.. had dinner and ice cream at secret recipie.. den cindy went tcc.. and the rest of us headed home..

aha... tania was blur.. she took NEL with us also.. haah.. she only realised it aft she board the train.. nvm la ger.. u got bus from my house here...


hmm tt's about it.. jus excited bout tomoro.. gonna be out the whole day frm 9am.. fingers crossed for good weather..


-winks!

been running deep into thoughts from 3am.. can't really sleep aft that.. nobody can help me but myself.. and it's myself to blame for setting this path.. not being to open my eyes bigger to see clearly.. not knowing what are the words said in between the lines... some ppl say i was being made used of.. some ppl say i' stupid.. and tt wat makes me clearer in seeing things around me now..


called star hub to check on the bills last night.. cos my instints tells me somethings is not right.. and yes it's not right.. the outstandin bill was not paid by him is $117.62.. see how clear i can remember.. i jus wish 15 july will come tomoro.. den i can cancel it and not having a sense of worry.. i'm really stressed up by tt idiot's case.. but lucky thing the singtel tt his mum as holding was clear with payments.. he's a jerk tt i dun wanna talk about aft every tights are clear.. meaning to say i dun owe him anything.. wake me up when september ends..




a friend of mine, ask me to help her patch back with her ex.. but to me.. the guy dun seem to bother a thing about her anymore.. how to help. i know every ger wants to be loved.. but.. it takes time.. it's not tt easy to find someone good anymore.. the guy called me.. cos i sms him.. i didn't ans.. cos i dun talk on the phone at home.. den she went to ask him.. why nv reply meiyi's msg.. he said he did.. den she ask me.. why nv reply him.. mdm.. i'm not mad at u.. i already said very clear.. i'm tired i will call him tomoro.. i'm tired of everything.. all i can say it's not even and 50 50 chance.


in a r/s.. when a guy ask for a break.. is equals to.. i dun wanna see u anymore in my life.. simple and short.. the chance of patchin back.. is very slim.. all i can say.. there are many fishes in the sea.. sometimes.. u grow up and learn something from the break.. stand up and go on with life.. tt's life all about.. a process of learning.



i'm dun wish to blog about my feelings towards ben.. it's all clear and simple.. i like him and he likes me.. i'm glad and happy to know him.. but hey.. there are still alot of room to get to know each other.. i won't let u wait too long..i jus need to set my mind to start a fresh new begining.. i hope u do ur part to help me wash off my bad memories.. thank you for making me smile everyday..







can't sleep anymore.. jus gonna surf the net for new blog skin.. have a great day everyone.. cheers!


" Love can be simple... Love can be deadful... Love and be sweet.. Love can be sour"
" There is no perfect love.. it's how u make it perfect"
-by meiyi

confessions made.. feelings are expressed... affections are felt... i think i see sun rise.. a light tt i've waited for so long.. has shone in me.. and brighten up my world a lil.. all i've said to him it's jus btw us.. and all i want to say is i'm goin slow this time.. he understands.. and i'm gald and thankful..


wat was told to me by my care-takers are nv be forgotten.. it will be in my mind forever..


i'm not blogging much today.. jus got to say i had a great time with these bunch of ppl who has stepped into my life.. i totally enjoy their company.. i was glad i went sentosa with yinhui and daphne.. if it wasn't them i dunno how i goin to spent my weekends.. haha.. thanx u gers.. yiwen.. tim.. & ben i enjoy ur company.. thank you.



yesterday we had our second group outing ... cycling session.. it was planned by me.. haha.. cos it was 3 mths since i cycled.. i was at the front leading with a tim yinhui and another guy.. i dunno his name.. ahha.. nvm.. hey faye.. i was in the first few leading ok.. haha.. so proud of myself.. hmm we cycled in the hot sun.. but it was great.. cos we love the sun.. hha.. we had our rest at bedok jetty.. where we took pic with our hp.. den we cycled to the back half way.. cos we had not much time left.. returned our bikes.. we freshen ourselves up by playing pool.. jus upstairs of the mac.. my gers and i change to a fresh suit aft 2 games of pool.. but to yinhui and my surprise.. we were even better at playing it aft we changed.. haah.. stupid thoery.. took pics too there..


aft tt we had our dinner at a place which i swear i wouldn't step into ever again.. and the place was jus opp his house.. nvm.. the food is nice.. i was actually crossing my fingers praying i won't see him.. thank god.. i didn't.. and tt made my day a happy fulls-stop.. ben.. no. 5.. i won't say anymore bout him..

ok.. here i leave pic we taken.. mostly the gers la.. cos.. wat to do.. we are born to be pretty.. haha





























< i like this pic>



< yi & Yi Wen> * hey i take pic with u liao.. dun bugged me anymore.. hahaah :P



< hui Tim & yi > our ITE Counselor.. Senior!!




< while walking to take the bus>



< daph & me >



< Tim and Yi walking the under pass>



< hui and yi.. taken b4 i slept in the bus >



< tel are toking.. daphne stress! haha>


finally..



< jus us.. > =)



looking forward to the sentosa trip part 2.. haha.. i know are having sun burn from last last week.. but nvm la.. enjoying ourselves is the most impt..

memories of saddness deep down to the ground... promised nv to look back... promised nv to talk bout it.. promise nv nv to remember it.. promised and a final promise nv to known this person ever gain in my life... just like a broken mirror which is fixed back.. vien like cracked lines are shown.. something which cannot and never can be removed..


cried enough.. hate enough.. fight enough.. quarreled enough.. the final decision is not left by me.. a death note was sent to my hands.. to end the beautiful story.. a story which i was once in.. things he gave me.. were dumped in a park which sets my mind at ease.. a place where only me and bro knows.. everything is gone.. the ring of promise will never be found... only left by my side each night is a soft toy he gave me.. a soft toy tt i love..



i'm not blogging here to remember the past.. the feeling about it is numb.. to numb to feel a sense of pain.. cried about it enough... sadness of tears have stopped.. at the chalet day.. deleted a final pic of us on my birthday.. which i kept from the day of break up till my b'dae.. there nothing to keep.. nothing to keep for memories.. my life is set free.. my soul and heart is free.. free from all the torture i've been.. blogs of us is deleted... delete to start a new begining...


line is drawn.. now wat's left to do.. is the 2 phone line i've sign up.. faye i need to beside me to do it.. i dunno.. i jus need you there.. cos u were there from the story started till the end..



happier days are coming my way... i'm glad and happier now.. i can feel i'm growing up.. i'm more relax now towards every point of view in my life.. i'm no more rushing to get things done... i'm more careful of everything around me now.. it's a lesson learnt.. a lesson of life.. thanks for picking me up.. faye.. jasmin and adrian.. i can never be more grateful den anything u all have to for me..


i'm not bothered of how ppl think about my blog.. i jus blog wat i want.. cos it's mine.. all i can say is i'm letting my feeling flow to the where it wants to go.. observations too are considered.. when a trusted hand reaches out.. there's no reason not to hold it tight..


a bit low today.. cos my face is giving me a prob.. but i dun show my no mood side.. cos the level is still minimum..



sunshine is coming.... =)


"Perfect love is rare indeed -
for to be a lover will require
that you continually have
the subtlety of the very wise,
the flexibility of the child,
the sensitivity of the artist,
the understanding of the philosopher,
the acceptance of the saint,
the tolerance of the scholar and
the fortitude of the certain."

hmm it's a new beginging for me tomoro.. i made wishes on my chalet.. the wishes i made was 4

to pass my driving
to stay beautiful
everyone around me be healthy and loved
and to find my love soon


i'm not rushing to fall in love..but i've cried enough about the past and i know i have frends who will bring laughter and joy to my life.. i know all of you will not fail to do so.. but still everyone has to have someone closer to heart more den friends.. sometimes i will still cry out of lonliness nights.. i dunno why.. i guess i agree with jasmin aftall.. i need to fall in love again to forget what i should forget.. someone who can take my hands again and hold on to me and nv let go.. a love tt will never end.. tt's all i'm looking for.. why can't tt special someone come? .. hmmm.. dear god.. when?


i'm not goin to be the quiet meiyi anymore.. who hides her feelings and jus keeping quiet till she loose it.. i'm jus goin to voice out my feelings from now on.. not hiding.. i'm goin to be brave.. tt's what we mafias' do right? be daring in everything we do.. even if it hurts.. at least a lesson learnt. hmm.. i may look like a person whom i see the cover of the book before accpeting him to be my bf.. well.. tt's is jus having fun.. and i gotta say not true.. i dun jugde the book by it's cover.. i follow my feelings most..


i'm glad tt ppl around found there love ones.. jasmin found adam.. tania found desheng.. faye found faith.. aaron found jamie.. dave found jamie.. so happy for you all.. i'm jus ready to find mine now.. i dunno if i should say.. but let me keep it in my heart first.. dun ask me ok?


had a great weekend last week.. went sentosa.. kath tagged along with me.. =) met up with my ite so called senior.. timothy.. den met up a few new friends.. yi wen and the other few.. i dunno the name.. of course i went with yin hui and daphne too.. we play in the water and 2 games.. and the scary part was me and kath almost got biten by this big dog.. it ran like mad la.. den we were escaping from it by walkin quickly to the water.. but to late. the dog ran passed us.. we jus screamed and stand still.. we got shocked out of our pants la.. shit xia.. i almost cried la.. so scary... nvm over liao


aft tt.. yinhui, dpahne, yi wen, timothy and me went gardens to have our dinner.. and accompained by another 2 guys.. benny and jimmy neuthron.. haha.. sorry.. hey.. lucky ur name not jerry.. later become ben and jerry's.. haha.. jus kidding ah.. ya had dinner den aft tt daph and yinhui plan to go for bowling.. hmm the boys acc me and daphne home.. cos the lane daphn booked was 1030.. and we had 1 hr to spent.. i came home to take socks and put down my bag.. the boys were downstairs my block.. yinhui came up to borrow toliet.. he he.. hmm ya.. when i went down.. i saw benny practising with the volley ball. ahah.. den timnothy packing his bag.. dunno wat else they do.. we wnet over to dahpne's house.. but halfway yiwen and jimmy went home.. cos i think they were tired.. nvm.. no force.. haha.. den left we 3 gers, ben and tim for bowling.. hmm my skils no good la.. aft the session.. we had drinks at mac.. den we headed home in diff cabs


hey.. we look like we jus know each other.. but we got so many to talk bout.. haha..not bad.. it's jus a regret tt i didn't know u all earlier.. den u all will bring fun to my chalet too.. nvm.. i'm planning one next yr.. patient ok.. wait with me.. meiyi's chalet part 2..


dun forget we have outings in the row.. looking forward to all outings with u all too.. thank you

i leave photos taken for the ending..
















happy birthday to me..