just came home from my grandma's place.. she's getting weaker each week i see her.. erm.. i dunno how to explain wat sickness she goin thru now.. but i can see she's in pain.. she is stubborn.. didn't wan to let us know from the start.. my mum brings her to doc.. and now is controlling.. all i can say i same kind of skin infection.. duno la.. my mum say it may take a life if not cured.. ya.. i'm worried la.. i'm sorry to my frends out there.. i can't really hang out much on sundays now.. cos i wan to spend my sundays at her house.. i wan to visit her.. hmm.. i dun wanna wait till the day i lost her and come to think.. wat should have been done.. i'm totally disappointed with my other cousins.. i mean busy is busy.. i mean taking out a few hours of your time to see grams is not a hard thing to do.. i admit i was bored at her house.. but.. in her shoes.. she just wan to see her grandchildren.. the ones she looks aft when we were still a baby.. she showered so much love to us.. boil soup.. fried noodle.. cook a sumpotenous dinner for us.. even cook our fav desert.. truely i miss them all now.. she's weak and can't really cook much now.. i miss dish tt she make for me.. i'm totally disappointed with my brother too.. i mean all other cousin can dun go to see her.. cos i'm not in the shoes to ditch them.. but i just dun wan my own brother to do this too.. my uncle was nagging about them on in the taxi.. ermm.. he fetches us home just now.. everyone expect my brother.. why.. be'cos we are there.. i told my mum.. all my feels just now.. and she said she is goin to tell my brother bout it.. i mean.. tt's bad la.. ur own grandmother is sick and now no one wants to visit her.. well.. i can't be bothered with them.. cos they just disgrace themselves to me.. totally and absolutely disappoint.. i love you grandma..

the chalet we are goin to book..






the chalet hass and bro been buggin me.. their fav chalet






a place to enjoy the sun set.. so romantic...







the chalet just over in front of the sea..

wow.. yesterday was one adventurous day for me.. haha.. at work so free xia.. i set up the christmas tree.. haha.. with her maid.. but i didn't do much cos.. i duno how to design a christmas tree... the maid did it so nice la.. nicer den the one me and mei mei did last yr .. haha.. just gotta say the i dun have talents with designing thingss...


ya.. aft work.. i went bugis to meet bro.. he was late so i went window shopping first.. haha.. wat else can a ger do while waiting.. ya den bro say i bought seaweed juice for him.. hey.. it's green tea.. just tt no taste only wat.. ok lor.. nxt time i buy you another can extra sugar.. hahaa.. ya.. we took train to tampines...


reached tampines it was raining.. so heavily la.. but ok la it didn't last too long.. we took bus 29 to changi.. we reach there it was burning hot xia.. he took me to his fav chalet.. it was ok la.. a bit old and bro was tryign to con.. den i was like.. can i still book the pasir ris one.. ok.. den i said i wanted to see the aloha changi chalet.. cos it was just across the road.. ok.. we check the price took some pic.. i can tell you al it's beautiful la.. over-looking the sea.. even bro now likes it.. haha.. ya.. we are sharing the cost.. and make it our chalet cum- my b'dae.. haha.. the chalet has 4 rooms.. a so called court-yard.. a living room and a kitchen.. so nice.. we set our mind already.. ya aft tt we walked down to the interchange to have my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner.. i only had one meal yeaterday.. loosing weight.. ya.. had fried rice.. nice la.. den we tok bus to tampines.. cos we meeting min there.. den took a bus to ken's house.. cos we were tryin to contacts hass.. cos we are suppose to send to computer to my jie's house.. ya.. heard from bro he's sleepin la.. hmm he also got tell me he's a deep sleeper.. ya.. haha.. first time met ken.. aft dunno how many weeks of chatting online.. funny guy same as the one i knew online.. his house so nice la.. small but cosy.. hah.. min and i help to clear the mess in the kitchen.. so many plates not washed, the floor SO STICKY.. OH MY GOD.. tt's wat me and min said at the same time.. hhaah.. ya.. aft cleaning up.. i help min to cook her maggie noodles.. ya.. den aft tt went meiling house.. we waited till 1130 hmm.. dun wanna say the details.. cos it's yesterday...


really enjoyed myself yesterday.. got faye.. jamsin.. ken.. den i saw zavier sleeping.. hmm.. yup thanxs everyone.. you really made my day..

so bored of the nail polish colours that i have.. haha.. i have so many kinds of pink.. bright.. pure ones.. light ones.. hmm.. gotta change.. i wan.. hot red.. dark purple... gold.. dif colours.. haha.. goin to be a bit daring and wild with colours now.. yeah.. busy week for me.. busy with filing.. handling my customers.. and close clients.. ya.. do the same things everyday.. busy think of love also.. haha... bro will nudge me when he's online... hey bro you always online at the wrong time xia.. i'm busy den you online.. i free.. you not online.. but hey.. cool man there's once i told you too.. i was thinkin when you coming online den pop out and nudge me.. haha.. so funny.. hey my testi.. wake up wake up.. give me my testi.. i also enjoy my weekdays this week.. wed.. met jasmin and bro.. was last min for me.. cos i acutally didn't have the mood to go out.. den min called at 6.. say was alone.. so i was like.. ok la anyway at PS very near my work place.. ya.. thurs went out wif novwell.. nothing much just had dinner.. hmm.. only 2 outings but i enjoyed..



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IXHFWiDWWE
(Liang Jing Ru - Qing Qing)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7e52J5jI1c
(Jolin - Tian Kong)

it was one busy day yesterday.. but also a sick day for me.. morning i went to ssdc as planned to take my trial test.. wow.. so many questions to do.. starting i was lost with the questions the screen poped out.. but later i got the hang of it.. yup.. did many questions for 45mins.. and having a clearer mind of the lesson.. well i guess i'm not at clever as other ppl around me.. i'm always stupid with studies.. ha! well.. watever.. aft it's over i went to book for 2 more.. which is today.. i'm lazy now to go for the first one.. cos i was having a terrible gastric pain last night.. and now i'm down with fever.. oh man.. i dunno leh.. i dunno if i should go.. if i go.. wat if i fainted?? no energy to walk.. but most prob not goin today..



ya.. yesterday.. went to meet min and kath.. my 2 part-time gf.. i feel so lesbian now.. ahhaa.. we were idling and lost of where to go from 330pm till 5pm.. so bad yesterday.. cos normally we will plan sui sui where to go.. but yesterday was like wat the fuck where should we go.. haha.. 1st we accompany kath for lunch.. cos she hasn't take hers.. i was startin to be half dead.. cos the ache started.. min was ok la.. aft lunch we were still thinkin where to go.. den we end up at bras basah reading books.. cos there was a book exhibition dere.. not actually reading la.. same la try to make the place messy and give comments.. haha.. cos tt's what we always do.. den we walk to raffles city shopping centre.. min bought tacopachi.. and cookies.. cos i think she was lost and down.. kath and i went to pharmacy to get plaster and gastric tablets.. and the stupid tablet didn't help.. it made me felt even worst.. ya.. dun ask the pharmist there for advise.. she just tell you the name of the tablet and point to the shelf.. and say " overthere" so no service standard la.. ya.. aft the we were lost again.. haha.. walked towards the direction of marina square..den half way.. we stopped.. very nice la.. stopped in front of a zebar crossing.. haha.. the ppl in the car was like.. are we crossing or not.. den we made a u-turn.. cos 3 of us.. want to go to lot stock.. the minute we stepped in.. min and i went str8 to the sofa.. haha.. relaxing.. they drank beer.. i can't cos i had gastric ache.. ya.. i had hot water.. stupid la.. drink hot water in a bar.. hai.. we were the only 3 there.. so cool la.. the place is like ours.. anyway it has always been.. cos it's like our house.. ya.. pauline left us alone.. cos she needed to buy some stuff.. ya.. den while playing pool.. a couple came in... haha.. jasmin went to take order.. she volunteered.. i was like watching the show with kath.. haha.. nonsense la she.. but luckily.. paulin came back just in time.. aft the first round.. we went to play photo hunt.. the usuals.. den play cross word also.. ya.. we wanted to play second round of pool.. but they group of ang mos.. continued one aft the other.. oh ya.. one of them smiled at me.. .haha.. so funny.. dunno la not interested.. so we just sat at our sofa.. having sofa fights and planned for christmas eve and my up coming chalet.. we planning to book a table for 12.. cos the usual la.. 3 of us..


aft tt i went home.. cos the ache was terrible.. and my whole body was like.. so light.. i took a cab home.. and the driver.. talked non-stop.. i told him off.. first time lor.. i tell a taxi uncle off.. i'm sorry for tt.. ya.. my dad made milo for me.. den i went str8 to bed.. goin to rest in bed today.. nxt week pay day.. haha.. goin to lot stock again.. but duno leh feel like goin party world.. how? but not goin to spend much.. didn't save money this month.. goin to save up for my KL trip also..

god damm.. it's a sat morning.. and my off day.. wat am i doin so early... hmm can't really sleep last night.. ya lor.. worried about some personnel stuff.. hai.. now goin to blog for my new year resolution.. it's kinda early but.. i dun wanna wait till 31 DEc.. cos i won't be in s'pore.. i'll be shopping like mad in KL.. so looking forward to that.. yup dun worry i'll bring presents home.. for my close mates..

hmm.. i want so many things.. here goes the list

Mp3... Lap-top.. nice clothes.. a diamond ring.. eh.. a new handphone.. my driving licence.. my hair to be longer.. my face to be slimer.. hmm.. a successful chalet nxt year..

dunno wat to blog already.. blog tonight again..

ha.. just came home from party world... went with kath.. min.. and bro faye.. didn't sing much songs.. maybe the time was too rushing.. i guess.. ya.. so booldy cold xia.. price was resonable la.. maybe we should do it some day again.. didn't sing enough.. so many songs in my head.. today's session is like a dedication day for me.. haha.. so many songs sang for me.. hmm... ya.. goin to put up every link of songs that was dedicated to me.. searching them now on you tube.. gonna be a long list.. ya.. bro i've gotta say sorry again to you.. sory for crying when you sang tt song... heaven knows.. sorry ok.. but i gotta admit you sang really well.. i wanted you to continue.. but min stoppped you.. i promise you.. when i get married.. i let you sing on my stage ok..you slip out info to me this afternoon.. on msn.. which i rather you not say.. cos i'll make me more curious lor.. you know my curiousity.. when i know something i really wanna know till the end.. you shldn't have said la.. now i'm bugging you again.. haiyo... so hate myself.. ok aft ktv.. we all went seperate ways.. i have ra-man with min.. it was on her cos i was broke already.. i'll treat her the nxt round.. yup.. ya. i think i really should go change the colour of my hair.. to more redder or rather.. a bit more blond.. haha.. no la.. i dunno how to say the colour.. it's between brown and blond.. how's tt explianation.. gotta do it maybe beginning of nxt month or so.. ya.. i told myself the min i start to dye my hair.. all things about me will change.. every single bit..


really ah.. can my parents just stop asking me the What and where ques.. it's just to pissed la.. i'm enjoying my outing the these words appear on my hp screen.. den is like sian ji bua already lor.. you know how it feels.. is like wat the fuck.. wah lan deh... i really hate it lor.. den reach home.. the W word.. Why so late.. so sick la.. goin to burst out soon.. i was cursing and swearing while walking home just now.. with all the valgar words i can think of in my mind.. i swear i was mumberling while walking home all the hokkien valgar word english ones cantonese ones.. haiya all that can come to my mind.. i've nv been so pissed with my parents in my life.. no matter how much they control me last time.. but now, i think is enough.. over enough.. i've tolarate more than enough.. i know they care.. but i think they should give rooms or freedom and space for me or my brother.. we are adults now not little kids running around the house with masak masak.. just so feel like getting out of this box.. why why why.. where where where.. what what what.. STOP IT !!! last time my mother now my father.. wah liao.. story nv ends.. ya not talking to my mum again.. unless need to inform her something.. i was telling her i'm goin to take my contact lense tomoro.. she was like.. "tomoro sunday leh.. auntie serene not in tomoro wat.." she not in i cannot take my lense.. so her staff handle ah.. i have to suit the shop's timing? hey i'm the customer mum.. i also have my plans to do my stuff.. i dun like to drag time to do my own stuff.. i'm gonna heck care bout everything.. i just do things my way now.. sorry to be rebelious or whatso ever i just had enough of the controlable life before.. i'm a human not an animal.. i'm an adult not a small kid.. haiya just take me away la jackson.. take me far away.. the further the better.. i just had it.. come on lor.. it's a sat.. wat more its only 930 so early.. go home for wat xia.. face the wall and catch mosquitoe ah.. or houseflies.. i only got 2 weekends sat and sunday.. can't you all just let me relax.. aft a stressful week.. i'm handling so many things.. bao ka liao.. i feel so useless before.. having to obey them.. now.. sorry.. i'm going to fly my kite and sing my song.. things i should obey i will listen.. things i think i should my way.. i just gotta say i'm sorry.. i really wanna spend more time out.. with my frends .. from young listen to you al because i was in sch.. den go shatec.. listen to you all be cos i was on attchment now what else you all wan... wat you all want from me.. WAT!!! TEL ME.. ani't i obediant enough.. am i being too obediant till you can climb up to my head.. ? i'm goin crazy.. stop putting stress on me.. i blogged this morning.. i'm not afaird to leave you all one day if you all chase me out.. i'm not acting big .. but i can stand and earn for eveything myself.. i'm standing very strong for my rights at home.. sorry to show how rebelious i am.. just standing up for all the rights at home.. i guess you all didn't know how i was at home ba.. cos i've always been a cheerful person who seems to have no problems at home.. but deep down.. i'm facing alot.. alot to blog or to say about.. my last time to say.. I"M STANDING UP FOR ALL MY RIGHTS INCLUDING MY HAPPINESS WITH JACKSON AND THE ONES I LOOSE...........

sianzzzzzzz.. my rotting is my word now.. haha.. wat's new.. nothing at all.. haha.. oh ya stress is also my word now.. more to come ah bro.. haha.. sian ah.. now.. relax first.. aft dinner den continue my notes for second lesson.. yesterday just copied a bit only.. haiyo.. when can i have my licence.. i think ah.. the min i get my licence i will rent a car str8 man.. den ah.. go fetch bro.. min and kath..den go anywhere.. i think havock lor.. the car will be in 2 parts lor.. haah... so funny.. hey no need to fetch min la.. she got her bike.. den no need to fetch kath also.. cos min will fetch her.. hey den tt's left us.. bro you and me.. eh.. so keen to have my licence.. i think i have to work extra extra extra hard.. yeah.. i think i should.. ok.. will go for book for my trial test on sat la.. since no plans.. ya i go on sat.. haha.. earlier better later no space.. ok.. set.. haiyo.. cannot make up my mind.. sian.. hey grace.. fly back fast.. i miss you so.. so so much.. you owe me a big hug.. dun forget.. this phrase is blogged my bro.. from his friendster...





haiyo.. where is my beer.. my mic.. i miss singing and drinking.. i miss lot stock... i miss min and kath goin crazy.. i miss the games we play while drinking.. hey.. plan leh..