hmm.. haven't been updating for a while..

had dinner with my other part of gers.. i'm glad to say we finally met up.. had dinner at gardens chatted.. and we went home.. cos we had work and school today.. grace! nice to see u are back.. but.. looking forward till u finish ur course den.. u'll be back rooted in sg! haha..

nothing much abotu ben and me.. everything's still sweet and blessed.. we do the same routine when we meet up.. dinner.. movie.. shopping.. wash his car.. and it goes round.. well.. u can't do much in sg anyway..

well..a bit down today.. had my 1st day of the women's sickness cramps the whole day.. a bit down.. but the day is over..

mood a bit down too.. dunno why.. guess i'm too tired.

pufffff... i'm all out of energy..

i'm totally tired of everything.. everything at work that is.. i dunno why... i jus seem to be wat i am last time when i was at work.. looking forward each day to work.. but now a days.. it's like no point working.. maybe i did more den enough.. well, actually it the fact. As i say.. in and out of the office is all my contributions.. well.. i'm finally tired of contributing.. i'm tired of all the resposibilities that i'm holding .. i'm tired of being the only one doin everything.. why didn't i ask for help..? even if i did.. it's forgotten.. and in the end i rather do it on my own.. tt's why i rarely ask for help.. i finally realise i did lots of work but i'm paid less.. I also realise.. and i find it rather true when my dad say.. it's best not to depend on ppl, if u have hands and legs.. depend on urself.. though it's tough.. but it's a life lesson learnt.. i may be capable but i'm still a human..

everyday i go home with body aches, thinking wat to do the next day.. thinkin wat's not done.. i'm over stress! and i hate my life.. i jus hate that.. i was not like that when i was in Carlton.. truely those were the days that i will always miss in my life time now..


i'm goin to tender my resignation soon.. jus dunno how to put it.. sometime u got to be hard on something to get urself a better life.. i got to admit.. lorraine is nice in person.. though harsh and demanding at work. but overall.. i like her.. well.. i've sent my resumes out.. goin for 1 interview this saturday.. see how it goes ba.. i'm not rushing to resign.. jus too tired.. i need a break..

yup.. it's been quite some time since i updated my blog...

besides being busy with work lately.. i was also busy with some private stuff.. as stated my previous post.. i'm switchin job.. did some research on the industries i wanna land on.. kinda make me stressed up.. will everything is settled so far.. typed my resume aft like 3 years.. had to go online to check wat format to present.. but I did everything yesterday.. I've found 3 compaines but yet to send any resume in.. Also went to carrer expo @ suntec yesterday.. along with yinhui, gallen and kevin.. hmm few of us in the gang are switchin jobs this yr.. ha ha.. kinda weird though.. well.. nothing much that we discover there.. jus looked around.. and we end up buying our dear lil ger.. Jihui's present.. her b'dae is coming soon.. We built a bear for her.. so pretty and it has a heart that pumps everytime she hug it.. well.. to let her know we are there mentally for her.. when she hug it.. ha ha =) oh.. she is 21 this yr.. Missed the days of 21 yrs old..


today.. went SSDC to do my bookings and attend one theroy assessment lesson.. i got it all right.. well most of it.. but i jus dun seem to know why I can't get it right when i'm doin the test.. well gonna put in more effort.. wise men always says.. If you have the will to do it.. you'll make it..

head down to J8 to catch a movie.. National Treasure will dear.. den headed down to his client's house.. whom has a cute lil black dog.. yup.. i played with it.. cos i love dogs.. well he's soundly alseep now.. b4 we head off to wash our car and to chinatown to buy some chinese new year stuff.. Oh i can't wait for the New year to come.. Red PAckets!!! haha

tt's all for nw till my nxt update. tc peeps! - love is in the air.. Happy 7th Mth SweetiE!

coming to me senses to blog wat i really to to fulfil in my life this year.. well.. lives been great.. as ever mentioned.. so far so good..

well.. list of wat i want this year..

-do my make over.. this time a real make over.. like wat my frend novwell did.. with differen background and out fit..

- go on holidays.. Taiwan (a most wanted to go place), HongKong.

-save as much money as i can for my future planning and for rainy days.. you nv wat will happen in life.

- pass my driving.. hopefull by this yr.. ben really bz with work and life these days.. kinda neglect it..

- loose more weight den last yr.. properly will eat lesser..

- do my shopping wisely..

hmm guess tt's bout it.. sentosa again tomoro.. pray for good weather..

blogging the moment again.. well many things to blog but dunno how to put it..

well.. i've been starting to think alot about my life and my future these days.. and having lots of funny dreams while sleeping.. my life os far has been great.. apart from some conflicts between me and my brother that has not been solved.. i've been a working adult for 3 years nows.. and many experience again from the job that i had.. from a not so independent meiyi.. i became more capable of myself.. in wokr and outside of work.. many good people i met along the way.. who guided me and giving me jokes while at work.. i even know wat their personality are.. that's wat a mask to wear.. but life have to go on.. i'm starting to get sick of it.. yes.. my job.. now currently.. I had to hold up so many jobs.. be it the changing of signboard.... changing the light bulbs.. everything u name i do it.. i jus dun see why i dun get help.. i dun wanna complain about anything.. but sometimes.. i jus dun feel happy with wat i have or am at work.. i dun mind helping.. but i guess i also deserved to be helped too.. why? i always tell me friends i wan to change job.. and i didn't act on it..

seriously this time.. i'm tired.. i jus wan to give up.. i'm lookin for jobs around the market.. at the same time.. i'm doin my soul searchin on wat industries i wan to land on.. i always wanted to go back hotel line.. or some place related to wat i have studied.. i really missed my days at Carlton.. serious missed tt.. the times workin with adrian and jasmin at the same shift.. it's the best days at calrton.. same thing 3 ppl in a shift but we can work happily helping each other.. but why can't the service office i work in now can't.. kor kor jasmin and faye.. i seriously miss 3 of u.. miss the jokes tt u 3 said.. sometimes indirectly makin fun of me.. but i still laugh.. nv been better den tt..


i guess the nxt industry i will step in will be workin in a courty club.. or a resort.. felxiable hours with no midnight shift.. though there isn't a sunday off.. but still it won't be aft 6...



Dear.. i guess there will be some changes in life if i work in a shift job.. cos it will really affect the times us being together.. i dun wan anything to change but i hope there is a better job for me to foreseek my future.. i'm seriouly sick of everything.. unhappy about the treatments. TOTALLY FED UP!