hmm....

nothing much happen so far.. not much outing with the gang.. we are busy saving money.. haha.. and all of us busy with out work.. and takin up our driving courses..


well.. me and sweetie met up quite alot more den usuall.. cos he's goin his malaysia trip.. gonna miss him not being around me.. but i guess i'm all line up with shoppin.. and i also promise i'll do something for him when he gets back.. haha.. but i have not gone to buy the stuff.. i'' do it on monday..


well.. i'm goin to change my image.. not goin to wear jeans.. haha.. well cos i have to be more xiao jie.. but dunno leh.. haha.. sweetie give me time.. to shop for clothes.. haha..


nothing much to blog.. jus updating for the sake of it.. haha

suddenly feel moody i dunno why..

staring at the screen of my computer again.. tryin to think of wat to blog..

yup watch the movie liscence to wed.. quite a nice movie.. all about 2 ppl getting to know each other frm frends to lovers... they had to go thru a test.. a process to test their love in diff situations.. from anger... to parenting.. den they got into a fight.. cos the ger didn't have a though for a guy.. and kept runing to her close guy frend for advises about everything in her life.. including the weddding..


the sort of brought up but in the end got back.. hmm love story always end the same.. ya.. they got married.. in the end..


well.. love is always so complicating to understand.. once u are with a person.. u got to know his everything.. his life.. his habits.. sometimes it's also diff to manage..


i'm not complaining or anything.. about my love life now.. i'm happy about everything.. jus deep into my feelings...



truely.. i miss all my frends... i miss hanging out with jasmin faye and adrain to most.. and of course our all time classic joke about " housefly" haha.. but again we have our own life to lead.. i hope we hang together again.. when we are free.. i'm always a call away.. really miss u guys.. jasmin's minah attitude... adrain's ah beng style.. faye's nagging and jokes about mat and minahs
not one can replace u all..


when it rains.. and you need a shelter.. i'm here
when it u are lonely.. i'll be there to accompany u
when u are feeling down.. and need a shoulder to lead on.. i'm here
when u wanna vent ur worries and anger.. i'm here..


sweetie.. u are like goin off for ur holiday in a week time.. i know i'm goin to miss u badly as this is our first time being a part for a long time.. in front of u i'm always strong with my feelings and i seldom cry infront of u.. it's countable.. 3 cos things brought me back to the old memorise.. but everyone knows i'm weak inside.. i've said i'll keep myself busy while ur'er away.. so i won't think of u.. but seriously.. i dunno wat to do.. kinda lost.. i promise i'll blog everyday.. so u can read wat i've done to compelte the test of waiting.. a wait for u to come back.. it really hurts to think of u not being beside me.. it would be so quiet.. without ur laughter.. ur teasing.. my phonewould be so quiet.. it's a motivation for me to work everyday now.. i'm lost.. totally lost.. i didn't wnna show my soft side cos i wan u to enjoy ur holiday.. well.. watever it is.. time passes very fast.. i'll be fine..

it's time to update...

will nothing interesting so far to update.. the chalet last week was fun but i missed most of it.. cos i was rather tipsy.. kinda miss it already... but i gotta admit that it was successful.. now wat i'm looking forward to is the sentosa trip nxt mth.. counting the days...


hmm... something rather good happen in my life.. good news in fact.. i've told my parents about me and ben.. they didn't say much.. and i took it as it was approved.. took up lots of courage to break the news to them.. they gave me advises and nagged a bit.. well... i guess they are happy. dunno la.. and they sai they are not ready to see him in person.. haha.. dunno la.. maybe it's their first time seeing their daughter's bf.. well.. see or dun see also nvm.. sooner or later wan.. like it or not.. i'm gonna be with him.. i told sweetie bout it.. and he's happy.. i guess i fulfuled one promise already.. do i still owe u any promises? i'm happy


hmm everything is goin smooth.. be it me or ben in personal.. life is getting better.. for the both of us..

looking forward to the weekends.. and also my prac lessons.. vroom vroom...haha.. oh ya.. i dun stall my engine anymore.. hahaha... i drove very well last weeek.. wahahah... i'm proud of myself..

sweetie.. as i've told u, i have many things to say to you.. so here goes..

today is a day that marks exact date for being together for 2 mths.. thank you for filling many happy moments in my life so far..

we may have some disagreement sometimes.. but u are always patient and understanding.. i'm sorry for being stubborn at times.. like the situation that happen at the chalet.. i should have listen and not go over the border that makes me feeling awful mentally.. thank you for accompanying me .. and taking care of me.. the whole night.. sorry that u missed out most of the fun.. i promise and seriously i'll do it.. i'll nv drink again..


i hope i have done my part as ur gf well so far.. sometimes i think i've neglected wat's goin on and neglected ur feelings and taking it for granted.. i do think back of wat i have done.. and i'm sorry.. i guess i've not done enough.. i love you not only because i have feelings towards you but also the things u do that moved my heart.. sweetie.. u've never failed..


i really enjoyed moments we are together.. and i hate to part frm u.. i'll be thinkin of when can i see u again.. i jus hate it.. without u by my side seems to be so quiet.. i miss ur voice.. i miss u in general.. i'll be thinkin of all ur actions and expressions.. and counting the hours till i can see u again.. i just hate that but is a process we got to go thru..


i'm feeling guilty sometimes.. cos u have done so much to satify me.. treating me really like a princess.. and i'm like doin nothing.. for this i'm sorry.. and i'll do more to repay the lost.. i promise also not to speak bout him again ok? cos i've speakin about him some of the time.. sorry for making you wait.. waiting for my acceptance, waiting to see my parents.. i know u are looking forward to that.. it'll be very soon.. i promise


sweetie.. it's a never ending typing and i jus wan u to know.. i'll nv let go ur hand no matter how rocky the road in front of us is.. my heart will nv stop beating for u.. i'll do my best to satisfy ur expectations that u have.. i'm ready to give all my love and i will shower u with my love now and forever.. and i'll do the role well that i'm promoted to frm 20 june..

ur gf nw and ur wife in 3 yrs..



i love u... benny tan

i guess it's time for me to update my blog before i go on a lil break with my frends and my dear sweetie... got a bit of feed back frm my secretary tan that i'm lagging away frm my updates of my blog..


well... nothing special happen so for.. everyday is the same.. busy as usual at work.. well. things are getting busier each day at work.. more new cases coming..

lookin forward the long planned chalet with my gang of frends... even took leave like last month for this.. i hope it will be fun.. i think it will cos they are fun ppl to hang around with.. jus scared i'll get drunk.. but guess not cos faye has certified me as a drink during last yr's new year.. haha.. right bro?



goin for my prac b4 the event... haha.. i've waited long for my prac.. busy mth.. all the slot beign booked. sad case sweetie will fetch me with a car he rented.. i'm also lookin forward to see sun rise with him..



well.. sweetie..although i've complaint about getting up early.. but frm the bottom of my heart.. i'm excited to see sun rise with u.. u know i dun mean it right?? i know it's all worth it.. i will not waste my time slpin in the car cos i rather spend the time with my eyes open to see u... i'm always waiting for hours and mins to pass everytime aft we part.. so why waste time with my eyes closed.. goin to put these 3 days in our memories of love.. goin to start the album as i promise.. as soon as i buy the pic album.. still lookin around for a nice one.. sorry for slapping u.. haha.. well it was accidental ok.. u punish me also wat.. so we are even now.. i love u dear.. muack...

When we turn out the lights
The two of us alone togetherSomething´s just not rightBut girl you know that I would neverEver let another´s touch, come between the two of us´Cause no one else will ever take your place



No one else comes close to you
No one makes me feel the way you doYou´re so special, girl, to me
And you´ll always be eternally
Every time I hold you near, you always say the words I love to hear
Girl with just a touch you can do so much
No one else comes close

No one else comes close


And when I wake up to the touch of your head on my shoulder
You´re my dream come true, Girl you know I´ll always treasure every kiss and everyday
I´ll love you girl in every way
And I always will, ´cause in my eyes
oh baby

chorus

i'm angry.. yes i am.. i dunno why but i jus dun like broken promises.. i dun like a sudden change of plans.. it jus pissed me off.. and it changes my mood..


i didn't wan to feel anger.. but it jus came.. i guess i was stubborn.. i guess i was fierce when i was angry.. but.. it's in my blood.. i can choose not to speak a word and walk off.. but i'm not frm the past.. i've changed.. and it's wasted of time..


because i love you.. and tt's why i didn't do it.. i'm keepin slient to calm myself down..


wat a day... beautiful begining.. rotten ending... thanx

- i'm done ( dun ask cos i dun wanna talk bout it * peace be with u)

good morning...!


yup i'm blogging before i head off to work.. it's been a sweet week so far for the past 2 days.. yes i'm still very busy at work..

Monday.. was tiring.. cos i slept late the night before.. but apart frm tt.. my dear sweetie was love sick.. ha.. well actually me too.. hah.. everything doesn't seems right and goin my way.. everything was bad.. esp my hair.. so diff to get them in line.. well the love sick was so bad that he couldn't concentrate on anything.. i guess everything was miserable in his world.. so i made my trip down to tampines and accompanie him for dinner.. well aft an hour plus session of meet.. everything was fine.



Tuesday.. a changed dinner meet with sweetie.. it was suppose to be today.. but he had his company's door knockin session and had to change the date.. well.. we went east coast.. had dinner and the rest of the night's was spent by the beach.. i gotta say the breeze was stronger the previous time we went there..


well.. sweetie.. i'm missing u already.. how i wish time would pass faster den i could be by ur side everyday.. our plans for our future is getting nearer as days passes by.. it's been great for the passed 40+ days with you.. never felt even more loved den before.. what u have contrubuted to the bank of love is always apreciated... as before.. u've nv failed to make me laugh.. i'm no-one if i dun have u.. and i only belong to u..



i've always wanted to blogged bout this..

My Queen.. A*mei, is having a concert in S'pore.. i've acutally waited for this for a long time.. and made a promise to myself tt i'mm go watched her concert.. cos her concert is always so happening.. she can sing and her voice can even make the building vibrates.. how good is tt.. i'm not lying.. it was frm a news report 2 or 3 yrs ago.. but.. i guess i'll skip it this time.. i rather but dvd and watch it...

it's another beautiful weekend for me.. apart from doing shopping for the past days.. didn't buy much stuff.. gonna control my shopping freak personality low this month.. ha ha..


well.. didn't did much yesterday... as usual met sweetie after work.. wanted to pray at the god of mercy temple nxt to my office.. but there were many ppl so we drop the plan.. but i'll pray there again aft work some day.. properly this week... had our lunch at BK... den bought my thumb drive.. didn't get to buy a pink one.. ha ha.. den went china town to collect my black pants.. cos i brought it for alteration..


it was a hot and lazy aftnoon yesterday.. so aft all the collection at china town.. i stayed the rest of the day at his house.. slagging the aftnoon away..



today is also goin to be a short weekend.. had dinner with cin.. shah... tania... of course sweetie came too.. D.S was absent.. cos wasn't feeling well.. hmm we ordered lots of food.. didn't finish all of it.. cos we were all full.. we just hang around den went seperate ways..


aft that.. sweetie and went bishan park for a stroll.. cos we were too full and it was still early.. out of tireness.. i was still ok.. cos i have him beside me... it was indeed a sweet night.. and a beautiful fulls stop for my weekend.


i guess tt's bout it.. gonna be another busy week.. as lorraine is goin out for a holiday to taiwan.. haaha.. which i'm still saving for.. tc peeps..




sweetie.. thank you for leaving a wonderful memory for me this week.. this week was one of those busy week we had.. but out of tt we still get to see each other almost everyday.. i'm glad that i recommanded u my client.. cos tt also created a chance for me to see u more often... and it's u are like part of my company.. haha.. hmmm.. well.. as promise, i will blog about what u did at bishan park just now.. to mark it as a foot print in our love journey.. u finally managed to carry me.. aft so many chance of me running away.. haha.. thanx for makin me giddy twice frm spinning.. well.. dear.. i love u more den anything in this world.. this love will live on as long my heart beats.. this week has been really sweet.. muacks!



* PS - dun mind the time.. cos it's and edited version frm the morning one.. thank you

sweetie posted this for me to read while i was at work.. a horoscope of him and me.. which described us so true..


GEMINI - The Chatterbox Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, But is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

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SCORPIO - The Intense One Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

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so tired.. jus got home frm watchin the movie Flash Point.. worth to watch peeps.. so fierce the fighting.. really worth watchin... ok goin to wash up and heading to my dreams..

hmm wat a fruitful week so far.. ha ha.. for 3 days tt is..


apart from meimei having sore eyes.. haha.. it was quite ok at work.. yup.. it's a good news to us that we hit the sales target for July.. with flyin colours tt is.. our hard work are not wasted.. we done much better den 2 mths ago.. god bless us..


yup.. i finally met up with my mafia gang yesterday.. my 2 gay brothers.. nv fail to show affections to each other when they meet.. and jasmin... also nv fail to inmitate me.. dots..! had much laughter as usual.. as planned was having our trademark chicken rice.. but.. faye said to go allson instead.. well.. he told jasmin den sweetie wants to go.. jus to change her mind.. if not.. WAR! haah.. well.. faye wins this round.. mr ah beng adrian.. jus kept quiet.. 1st time saw him so deep in thoughts..


our dinner table was filled with food.. ha ha.. all of us ate except.. kor kor.. who claimed that he was full.. and his menu for his dinner was.. Heniken.. oh.. i really feel like drinkin man.. hmm again i pretty miss the times we 4 were in carlton.. esp to hear jokes of how 3 of them treat the guest.. haha.. and the classic jokes that we always have.. well.. i gotta say.. there won't be another one of each of them to replace the place in my heart.. hmm... a bit chim to understand.. we as jus 4 diff personality mafias to make it complete.. haha.. we shall meet up more often.. despite frm our busy lives.. i promise i'll be there..


nothing much happen today.. meimei was on mc.. it was rather busy in a way aft lunch.. i was practically doin everything at the same time.. my multi tasking skills has improved again.. haha..


well.. sweetie.. u've been very sweet today.. thanks for buying me lunch.. i finished everything... haha... but i got to say i'm sorry that i couldn't make it for lunching with u.. hmm.. well.. thanx for keepin low profile to meet me aft work.. thanx for makin me in delimma.. fooling me around.. haha.. well.. it was indeed a surprise and an effort made to meet up with me.. though it was simply jus a few mins but it's worth it.. appreciated it.. i love u..