many things have been comin to my mind.. from the ppl i see on the road.. or the music i listen.. listening to love songs has always been my fave.. and some songs i listen to.. images of my past love.. is playin it's scene like in the movies.. i can listen to it on the bus and tap my feet to it.. if rythem hits my feet.. and yes most of it did in my mp3.. some are soothing love songs and hearbreaking.. i have to admit that i was also tearin the the bus just now again.. while listen to one song.. about promises made in one love and was broken into pieces when it come to an end.. yes.. the song reminds me of jackson again.. i dunno i just come naturally.. hmm yes it's dead...


questions pop up..
1. how many times can one fall in love in life.. i have fell in love 2 times even though i have 5 bf's b4.. serious ones nv works out the way i want.. not one listen to my call..

2. how many times can 1 say i love to another.. and does the 3 words really meant wat it was said out from the deadly mouth..? wat's the point of sayin it but it doesn't mean the way it should..

3. wat's forever love and enternal love anyay.. when it does not exits..

4.why does couple has to change to suit each other when they love the way each other were when they just met..?


i'm just the way i am.. navie, sweet and lovable , cheerful & talkative.. why i did change for tt damm-it and became a mouse.. well.. i nv wanna be tt way anymore.. if this time the right one comes.. i'll be the way i am.. and i'm still glad i gain more rather den lost aft the break.. thank you all.. i'm lookin forward to the chalet.. i wish to have surprises.. i dunno.. i just wan it the most memorable one.. bro you promised tt you'll mae a video for me.. you better make one tt can make me cry.. a touchin one.. i dunno.. haha. we'll surprise i dunno will have a not.. just see wat i'll get on tt day.. i hope i receive flowers on tt day.. prayin is the one i like.. hahaa.. no la just kidding.. hmm.. oh well. save the tears for the last..

huffff.... tired xia.. hmm work was damm smooth today... cos my boss went on her cruise trip which she was talk bout frm wed.. ahha.. ya.. this is the first time she didn't call back to check on the operation and also the first time we nv call her to solve problems or even ask bout whereabout stuff or files she placed.. haha.. kinda proud of ourselves... hmm i put up the decorations today for the office too.. hmm yes.. her maid was suppose to come today to help out with the filing of minutes but.. in the end was a no show... she's goin to get scolding lor.. wat you know..



ya.. aft work.. i met bro.. and we started the hunting for the candle stand which in end was a empty case.. i also bought my Mp3 player todat.. finally aft for 2 yrs.. haha.. cos i always spent my money on clothings... yes... den we went off too china-town.. as planned to look for my ah beng kor kor.. mr adrain yeow.. haha.. before tt we were waiting for the lion-dance and the fire-crakers to be popped.. it was quite a long wait but all worth while.. cos.. i'm statisfied even though my slipper was being stepped so many times.. and i was said off by a blaghadesh.. i was so pissed i told him off.. and bro started his naggin.. not to me.. but to him.. haha.. go go black ranger.. power up! haha.. kk.. erm ya speackin bout lookin for my kor kor.. he wasn't station there.. one of his fren whom we hang out with on new year's eve told us.. ahaha bro can't reco him.. but he reco me from the min we stepped there tryin to peeped.. haha.. he wave for hello and i did it back as a way of manners.. ya.. aft we knew he wasn't there.. we found a good malay stall there.. wow in chinatown lor.. wat you know.. i had mee soto with on bagaldale.. my way of eatin mee soto.. we lots of chillie... delicious lor.. heaven! ahah.. ya... den we took train back to serangoon aft a long way to find our hole out of the crowd and wait for the bus... kinda tired now.. will up load the pics in the later blog.



and yes... the list for the chalet is all done up.. now i'm starting to do the invitation.. designing it to it's perfect.. see all of you in may... all must come.. my vips.. tania.. cindy.. desheng and eugene.. grace you are a vip too.. in my heart.. oh ya speackin of grace.. hahaha.. i shocked her out of her pants on friday at suntec.. haha.. so funny.. hey i didn't expect you to scream lor.. haha. so pai seh xia.. sorry dear... take care.. hugs!!

hmm... nothin to blog.. and i'm force to do so.. haha.. hmm nothing la.. at home.. things a slowly sewing it wound.. quietness is still there.. hmm i'm no talkin to my borther cos i hate his dun care attitude.. anyway dun bother bout him.. he just pissed me off..


hmm.. getting myself ready for the new yr.. hunting for new clothes for a new image.. tryin to dress myself like a superstar. haha.. hmm yes.. tt's wat i wan to be this yr.. last yr was a lady like attitude.. cos erm.. yes i was with jackson so.. ya.. heck it.. this yr.. lookin forward to the ktv hang out for the first day f new yr.. with baby min and bro.. and ah beng kor kor.. adrian... haha.. ok this sat plan is outing at chinatown to hunt accessories for the chalet.. yes... hmm i guess nothing much to update here.. tc..

oh well.. i'm sorry it's been days since i update.. well.. nothing much to up date ba.. hmm. now i'm having headaches.. so many pimples poping out.. oh.. meiyi not pretty already.. i'm tryin my best to drink lots of water.. i really mean lots.. but sometimes work is too buzy so i kinda heck it.. haha.. yup.. i'm goin to squeeze one later.. oh.. so low moral now.. image of myself is wat i really mind so ya.. hmm.. really nothing to blog .. nothing nice to share at all.. hmm.. i guess i need to get out to know ppl and there and there i have more outings.. dunno la.. i need no naggin.. but i still waiting for the one to step in.. hmm.. well i have no one in mind now.. my mind is all filled with my driving and chalet.. which i'm excited about.. hmm to all who are reading(esp my close frends).. i really hope all of you will be there.. it's happening.. i'm thinkin of the theme for it.. it won't be an ordinary a b'dae chalet.. besides the food and drink which are all picked by me with all my heart and soul.. which will suit everyone.. i promise!! just a little note.. it's a romantic and happening one.. find out urself.. haha.. cos i miss all of you..



hmm thinkin of i think i'll cry.. dunno la.. i guess it'll be touching to celebrate my b'dae with all the ppl i know and ppl who are colse to me and my heart.. esp my closet frends like tania and cindy.. and i've nv had such a big celebration with so big buch of ppl.. i tihnk i repeated myself.. so if i'm crying on the 26th of May 2007 at the chalet.. pls give me a warmest hug..

Main Entrance




Front view of chalet





My Chalet Name





over lookin the living room from dinning room




Kitchen






back of the house... my sabo place







side view of the chalet





Swimming Pool

phew..~ it's another day to explore my chalet.. bro and and went to see the place again.. excitment started once again.. haha.. we were like 2 little kids.. haha.. oops...! haha.. okok.. we went to ask the recep a few other questions.. and good thing i can choose which chalet i want.. cos we though it's choosen by the staff.. ahha.. well.. we walked all the walk in the chalet.. all the way to the end.. and now decision is confirmed that we are takin the second last chalet in aloha.. it's nice.. even more peaceful and private then the one we saw tt day.. well.. we were lucky enough that renovations are goin thru for this one we are takin.. haha.. cos it'll be so called brand new when may comes.. haha.. we took this chance and we in to have a look.. well.. as our motto always says.. Not Shy Den Can Get.. haha.. ya.. we love it la.. and everyone.. for those who are stayin... there's bathroom in every room.. haha.. tt's the best part.. we dun have to fight and wait for each other.. haha.. ya.. we've taken some pic of it.. bro and i made plans for tt day.. i craked my head for my invitation list.. well.. i was facing the sea while thinkin.. tt helps me to think more.. i guess.. while bro was irritatin me.. haha.. ok here are the pics as above..

rain rain rain.. haiyo so cold now.. as usual i'm bloggin and singing at the same time.. haha.. just miss singing at party world.. hey.. pals.. when ah.. plan leh.. i wanna sing my fav songs again.. today when for my 1st lessson of practical.. all i can say i was FUN!.. i get to start the engine.. turn the steering wheel and handle the gears.. wow i feel like i'm drving to go shopping.. hahaha.. erm tt's how i explain.. really fun.. love it.. i even went 4 round the circuit.. erm i admit it i did stall the engine only once.. hey.. everybody went thru tt ok..? hmm.. i'm bookin my nxt lesson when i go for my basic nxt month.. hai.. love the feelin of driving.. yes.. a step nearer to get my suzuki swift.. yes..! haha. now.. saving up for my chalet.. erm.. well i know ppl out there are planing the sabo thingy.. well.. i'm ready la.. haha.. both mentally and physically.. cos i'm goin to be wild too on tt day.. a boylish side of me.. ahah.. i know i'm be damm dirty on tt day.. with crazy and wild frends.. hai.. haha.. sorry.. yes.. tomoro is sat and plans have made to do planning for my chalet.. with bro .. well.. i'll blog here and all updates of the event.. my big day.. aha.. my 22nd b'dae.. so lookin forward to tt.. i hope you all too.. cos i've nv plan something like tt in my life.. esp for my b'dae.. i wish all my beloved frends are there.. even those who i've not been contactin much.. i hope everyone is there.. erm.. one thing confirm there won't be a b'dae cake.. cos it's a mess la.. nobody will be eatin it anyway.. and i dun wanna waste food just like throwing around.. so ya.. for more pls stay tune.. thank you for dropping by..

yes it's officall i won the venue to hold my chalet.. and decision is official confirmed..my chalet will be held at aloha loyang.. haha.. so happy.. went to view the place an took the price list today with bro.. we were complaining bout the walking in.. cos it was a long way.. but hey look at it.. i was a good exercise.. and i like walking.. ok.. have decided the sea view one.. erm.. of course it was facing the sea.. haha.. and wat more.. is more private and beside it.. theres a big field.. and also there are 2 parking lots.. haha.. it's just like a terrace house.. wat you know..!! i fell in love with the place la.. and good thing bro too.. haha.. yes.. so proud of myself.. finally he nodded his head to agree.. cos.. it was near to the red house.. and we are just in front of the sea.. erm i said tt twice.. haha.. have work out only one quater of the invitation list.. more to do this saturday.. and yes.. we have forgotten to take the pic of the place today.. due to over-joyed.. haha and yes.. there are many activities to do there.. swimming.. walkin at the beach.. cycling.. soccer.. flying a kite... anything man.. so many to occupy ourselves.. so bro.. ask you the last time... changi or loyang.. say say say!!! i can't hear you???? hahahaah :P



to S.U.E : you all will love the place too.. cos according to faye.. he say there's a place for you all to expolore.. for more information pls check with him.. haha.. and you all are invited..


ok... back to my plan for goin out today.. yes i did went to the event today.. i bought a present.. and went there.. bro went up with me.. i was scared and my hands are cold.. cos i tot.. i would face him and the mum again.. and i was afraid i would me chased out by his mum.. i call meiling before goin up.. well to me.. she sounded unhappy.. or maybe she was busy?? well who cares.. i was at the door well.. i was scanning for his shoes. but i dun see. anyway i didn't look into the house.. i got a feelin.. he was inside.. somewhere.. and johnson was there ... i just said hello.. den his mum came out from the kitchen.. ya.. she was smilling.. and invited me in.. well.. i just rejected and siad my frends are downstairs.. and bro is was standin at the staris.. meiling came out with my stuff.. and i told the mum said i need to go.. and meiling was like.. " come in la.. eat something.." i was like "wat the hell" haha.. i just said sorry.. i need to leave.. and the mum " you have my number right call me ok? " i was like " okok (in my mind call you for wat ?)" haha.. well.. i left.. and i saw his dad.. he smile and i greeted him.. hmm he was shocked i guess.. cos i can tell from his face.. well.. went down stairs..choose the things i wanted to keep.. well i kept the piglet that he bought for me.. which i love it alot.. cos it have accompanied me the times tt i spent at his house.. even the 2 over-nights.. i also kept a few pic.. cos i felt that i looked pretty in it.. haha..ya basically tt's all i kept.. well.. i grade myself 8 out of 10.. cos i almost cried.. which i didn't let my tears row.. and wat the other.. i didn't get to make frends with him again.. hmm.. well i guess it's fated.. i'm just proud and happy for wat i am now..

just got home.. kinda shagged.. thanks for the outing bro and vincent.. sorry dave i didn't came on time.. make it up nxt time.. erm.. i'm fine with anything la.. you all plan.. haha..


ya got scolding again.. cos have been goin out to often.. den i just touch up my hair also kana scolding.. wat's the prob xia.. everything is just so controllable.. EVERYTHING.. my life just sucked.. sucked a whole lot.. want to do this cannot.. wat to do tt cannot.. everything in my life also cannot..

peeps... i know you all meant well.. but i dun see why you all so worked out.. i'm not startin a war or anything.. dunno la.. i dun have any intentions in my mind.. i'm just nuatural... i know i'm doin well.. but i do have my own decision too i hope you all respect it.. cos.. aftall it's my life.. advises i'll take..


i guess i'm just goin to her house tomoro den loyang den home.. so tired.. a quick outing.. i dun even feel like goin now.. but i'm wanna put a fulls stop.. fulls stop to everything..

oh.. it's my first post for 2007.. wow so crazy day yesterday.. i did housekeeping in the day.. threw away quite a few things.. yap.. den the time i finished it's already 3+ already.. i took 4 hours to do it.. well.. i much satisfied... but tired and shagged... haha...




had my lunch... washed up and off i went to BP to meet min.. we bought tibits and drink den sat under the block.. about 9pm we went to the coffee shop near by adrian's house.. cos we tot he was at home.. had 4 bottles of beer there.. ahha. erm by then we were already.. drunk.. but i still steady... min was a bit high.. ahah.. called adrain and he said he was at a pub beside his work place.. ya.. den took cab to china town.. met up with adrian.. on the journey we stopped a few times cos high tight.. ahaha.. ok den got there.. adrian was with 2 other frends... ya.. adrian hug me and min.. cos it was 2 yrs ago since i last saw him.. haha.. so long leh kor kor.. i miss him lah.. totally.. and his way of cursing and swearing.. ah beng way.. hahah.. you laugh till you drop too.. ya.. his 2 frends left b4 count down.. ya.. it was a ktv pub.. erm.. play 2 rounds of pool and tt was 30 mins b4 12.. ok den the staff there gave aways this spray thing.. even before the count down jasmin.. me.. adrain and faye already started the fight.. aahh. so funny la.. we were running everywhere and i was even pushed on to the floor.. i sat there la.. cannot get up.. thanx ah bro and kor kor.. i was grab by adrian.. ahha.. jasmin even spray it in my pants.. thank you ah.. & kor kor.. keep sprayin at me.. hmmm :( .. after the fight & count down... it was totally smoky.. i covered my mouth with the tissue from the table... den they also.. haha.. 4 ninjas... ok.. den zul came with another fren.. tt time me and min was drunk and lost already.... adrian too cos he keeps wantin to bite my hands.. madness i tell you.. took a few pictures too.. all of us drunk.. ok we left the pub at about 1+ 2.. waited for cab till 345 to 4.. den my dad's frend came to fetch us home.. my dad came to my rescue.. love you daddy.. ya.. aft both of them got off.. i was totally switched off in the car.. haha.. until his fren call me.. i didn't wash up just changed and slept.. all the way till 11am. wah.. wat an enjoyable day..




have pic in my hp.. i'm still tryin my way to load it.. i'll put it in frendster and here... bro you better load the pic.. haha.. thank you ah..