grace is back!! but i haven't heard anything frm her though.. whey.. sms or tag me leh.. if u see this post.. cindy.. no worries.. there will be no pork or lard.. cos i seldom eat pork too. we won't die without eating that.







well.. i'm kinda emotional these days.. i dunno why... and i tend to keep to myself.. and suddenly I dun feel like trusting anyone around me.. inculding benny.. I jus dun seem to know why.. I'm so lost and empty.. and normally aft the tears I'll be okay.. but now.. tears dun allow me overcome my sadness.. nothing comes out..

maybe because I was been betrayed once.. and afraid of loosing.. i dunno lah.. it's irritating me.. i dun seem to be back to my normal-self. how? help!

about 10 days to go till i resign.. I'm looking forward to that everyday. Maybe I dun get to see sweetie as often as last time.. tt's why I'm lost.. whenever ppl asked about him i get pissed of.. it's true.. and i'll start thinkin why do they want to know about his presents.. and there's nothing to do with them.. but den maybe it's just out of concern.. well.. i dunno la.. it's always aft a year os r/s my mood will be like that..

I wish I could see benny more often.. den i'll feel myself back on the go..

dear.. i'm sorry.. i'm jus too afraid of loosing you.. i swear.. i'm really afriad..

well.. weekend passed quite fast again..

work was fun.. cos all the bosses not around this week.. big boss go hongkong for holiday.. second boss went bali for the new showroom opening.. yup.. and we in singapore work and play at the same time.. laughters always fill our time before we knock off.. aft having spoken frm adrian (my second boss) i still decided to prceed with my resignation.. well.. i find working at the lawyer's company most challenging and also to keep myself full with each second. Though it maybe tough and stressful.. but i can make it.


my last day is on the 5th of july.. and the following monday 7th july will be the date i commence work at the lawyer firm.. happy to be back to my 9-6 hours.. so happy.. tt's equals to meeting my mum aft work.. shoppin on my own.. and spendin more time with my sweetie and my friends. So looking forward to that.

Oh! friday was our 1yr being together.! wow.. time flies.. hmm didn't really get to celebrate cos i knock off at 9pm.. caught a movie aft my work. Get Smart.. so funny.. nice.. and The Rock is so HANDSOME.. haha.. i'll nv stop sayin he's handsome.. frm day 1 i saw him fight at WWF.. wah.. so muscular.. faint!.. opp.. i think somebody goin to get angry.. sorry sweetie.. muack.. u are still the best..

yesterday.. aft work went to sze ni's b'dae buffet.. maybe i was there early.. not much ppl.. didn't stayed long.. aft that.. went to pasir ris pond to see ppl fish.. sweetie didn't get to do his fishing for 2 weeks.. can see the eager face on him.. haha.. aft that we headed back to his house.. watch dvd.. den aft that i went home.

today.. suppose to go gym.. but it was raining heavily.. i was freezing cold at 6am.. got woken up by the thunder.. i guess it wanted me to cover myself tight to continue my beautiful dreams.. heh! offically woke up at 8am.. cos as the start i said.. suppose to go gym with yinhui.. we sms each other to cancel cos of the weather.. i planned to go back to slp.. but i tot.. i could use the time to pack my stuff.. so i did.. thrown away many stuff.. my drawer nw is like so empty.. it's spring cleaning nxt week again.. my cupboard.. so many t-shrits.. i should give away some.. headed to his house at 11+ ate home-made lunch.. den did my puzzle which i have stopped for 2 weeks.. the sun came up.. and we went fishing.. headed to hougang mall to grab our dinner.. and also signed up a facial package.. no offence by the one i went b4 was not good! if u wan to know i tell u.. it's a name of a country.. and very famous.. fulls-stop. this one i sign up is very expert..! i haven't said about my skin type.. the person said first.. wow! impress. goin for the 1st session nxt sat.. before meetin tania/cindy/grace/sze ni/kiyoko.. I didn't forget dun worry.. benny reminded me too.. but i have already saved in my hp. no worries at all! =)

now typing this blog at benny's house.. he's watch DVD.. i'm not cos it's a scary show..

so gers.. where do u all wan to have dinner? i absolutly have no idea.. give ideas!!! pls!!! shall we eat steam boat or sakura buffet at somerset?

well.. grace is coming back.. haha.. haven't seen her for 1 year i think.. oops! forgotten.. i think i better stop.. tired.. i've upated everything for this week. bye~! muacks!

Love is a story for two
Just like the early morning due.
Always fresh & pure
You are the one I always adore.

You caught my sight
Out of sudden, like a beam of light.
Everything around us doesn’t seems to exits
For me to see you clearly,
From that moment, I just want you mine dearly.

Shocked you made the first step, to ask me out on a date.
I was overjoyed, and almost dropped dead.
You asked if I wanted the rest to join, but I said no,
Cos I want you all to my own.
Enjoyed myself that night
But it was sad that we have to part.
My instints was telling me that you’re that Mr Right.

I missed you every day, And hopping to see you soon
I kept daydreaming, every noon.

A second date was asked,
And by vocal, a question was asked..
Surrounding was great and romantic,
Without a thought, I said yes,
A necklace was worn on me,
How thrilled could I be,
From that moment, our hearts were intervine.

Days passed, we held hands and slowly progress to kiss
Which couple wouldn’t go through these.
Everything was sweet like you.
We were really meant to be.
You’ll know what’s on my mind
Our thinking sometimes are sometimes the same.

We have spread our love to everyone around us.
Just like the wind blows the dust.

You will always stay by me,
You will always be there when I’m in-need.
Be it sick or discomfort. you love jus warmth my soul.

Through this walk of year
I have learnt a lot from you
Love isn’t just about falling in love
It’s about a lesson for two.
Hate to see your frowning face,
I wish I could keep it in a box and tied with lace.

For you my dear,
Love will never end
Beside you, the stage to shower our blessings is where I want to stand.
Hand in hand till we go to heaven up above.
With loving flying dove.



Looking forward to build our new path of love once again.
Challenges or fears we’ll overcome as one.
Many love poem I’ve written, just for you
From my heart, every word is true.
Never stopping with words
Because you are the living in me.


Happy 1st Annivesary my dear.
To you I belong.
You made me overcome my fear.
You made me feel so easy loving you.

loving you is the sweetest ever in my life.. aft being tripped and fallen out of love for 5 times.. i've finally found you.. most of the ppl tt we know are jealous about us.. tt's very clearly known.. as they are talkin about it.. but i've gone through so much pain jus to find this diamond like you, i've done god's tests and finally pass.. so i deserve it.. sweetie.. i'm sorry for any wrong if i have done.. you have done a very good job to protect and loving me.. showering me with never ending love and care. I treasure you even more each day.. pictures of us will be made into movie in my memories when we are not meeting.. i'll be yours only and forever.. happy 1st yr anniversary. muacks!

not goin to blog a long post today.. nothing much happen this week.

goin to resign soon.. as decided.. have typed the letter.. and giving it to my manager tomoro.. I just see no point to stay there.. everyday is just wasting my time there.. I totally see no future there.. ppl are nice there esp now i have a very close colleague, Elisa.. she jus worked for 1 week.. =) surely will miss her..

Didn't slept well last night.. guess was the weather, woke up 3 times during midnight.. and the stupid construction started banging at 730am.. wat the F! I was like zombie this morning.. tot i would be better after taking panadol extra! but nope it didn't help.. requested for half day off.. and was approved on the spot.. sat at my place.. den boss came to me and said I can leave now dun have to wait till 4pm. So logged off frm MSN, packed my bag and left.. without tell anyone,
except my boss, of course.

slept for 2 hours.. but not feeling better.. instead got fever.. suppose to meet my gers tonight.. but couldn't make it.. my sweeties.. i'm very sorry! i really miss u all alot.. hmm..

goin to rest early to night.. well take care peeps!

it's great yesterday.. just spending the time with sweetie.. i what i cannot ask for more.

went to work as usual.. buy papa cream puffs for my colleagues.. and they got me a poach.. so sweet.. i nv expect any presents seriously.. recevied flowers frm sweetie.. he ask Hazel Florist to send to Plaza Sing.. i actually showed him 3 pic of the flowers i like and asked him to choose.. and he chose the one that i like most.. wow..! xin you ling xi yi dian tong.. dear.. we cannot be more fated then anything else.. haha.. we just think alike.. most of the time. :)

took time off.. went clarke quay to have dinner.. nv knew wat to eat.. so we ate Mahattan seafood.. den took a stroll around tt area... and catch a movie.. Kung-Fu Panda!! it's totally funny and u can laugh frm the start till the end.. aft the show i was so widely awake.. but sweetie was over tired.. haha.. but we still headed home cos it was already 12+

took 2 pics of the flower.. will upload it later.. cheers! rushing off to prepare for work!! today is another Shoppin spree!! yeah!!!!

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to me..!!

well nothing to be happy about cos i'm 23!! i dun wan!! i wan to be forever 21! (not copying the shop name) well.. i guess we got to grow up and be wiser some how..

wish list time:

1) my Real Gucci Bag ( haven't save money for that.. it's been 2 years)
2) all my friends to be pretty and handsome
3) hope there is no more natural disaster & china Si Chuan ppl to stand up again.
4)everything goes well with every i know.. and myself
5) a better job with off days on sat and goes home @ 5!.
6) Go Taiwan end of this year.

tt's all i guess..

Part 1:
these are the true friends whom were with me by my side no matter wat happens.. saw me smiled.. saw me cried badly (couldn't stop at all).. saw me at my craziest times. It's difficult to find a true friend in this world.. not everyone that passes through your path of growing is a true friend.. some are backstabbers some are jus meant to be there for tt moment.. but i'm glad no matter which part of my life is at.. i still have 8 them to find comfort with ..




Part 2:
These are the ppl whom I have known for a year.. dey too brought me many laughter.. like we have known each other for years.. and helped me found my love.. a love that has been so sweet and peacful.. a love that i had never been so peacful.. enjoyed every outing we had.. i call our group "The Gang".




Back to reality:

well.. seems fine with everything in my life so far.. had a great shoppin spree with my gals last weekend.. had sushi as a treat frm me.. cos i've recevied my 1st pay frm the new job.. my job is as boring as ever.. goin to resign soon.. have acutally typed my tender letter..

worried for a lil one.. (sweetie u know whom am i refering to) i dunno wat i'm worried about.. jus worried & watchin out.. totally disappointed at the moment when i saw her status changed.. aft all the care and concern, all gone to a waste.. my heart sanked and was in anger.. well.. if tt's the way she wants to play her life.. den be it.. when she gets wacked when mistakes are done.. it's just, serve u right.

looking forward to meet grace and the rest of the company.. it's been almost a yr since we've met.. right..? The last one was cindy's b'dae last yr.. :) i'm not worried we dun meet up often.. cos every year, June, July and August we will sure to meet up..! tt's the time i know it's been a year..


my b'dae is coming in 2 days time.. nothing much to expect cos i dun need presents.. my presents are you my friends, my love and my family.. nv can I ask for more.. i'll be at work, can't celebrate much.. only aft work which I've got only left 3 hours till midnight.. so wasted & ke lian.. For once, i'm workin on my b'dae.. :(

tt's all i gotta update bout myself.. nites peeps!

wat a night.. all of us were almost drunk.. ha! except for kath.. she'll nv be drunk, since the day i go drinkin with her.. my sweetie was not drunk too.. cos he cannot drink alcohol.. he's allergic..

well.. kath, yh and kamal.. reach loof bar first.. they were sitting near the lift which was easy to spot, dear and i came later cos we had things to settle before.. soon aft us.. gallen, maurice,hock seng & kevin came ( the gang's 4 heavenly kings.. cos ktv they always sing the heavenly king's song).. den follwed by daphne & Yi wen.. we ordered a whole lot of cocktail talk and drink.. den as usual gallen showed his new magic tricks .. haha.. as ever, it was eye opening..

aft a while.. I went to look for my another best-ger-friend jasmin.. whom i used to go drinkin with too when i was in my hotel days.. she was working aftnoon shift which makes her finish work at 11pm.. I gave her a big hug.. cos it was like almost a year since i last met with her. ben went which me.. cos he wanted to ask for complimentry car park.. cos we parked our jie si at carlton.. which was $6 per hour.. but she didn't had tt high permission to take for me.. so she ask me to ask Mr Anthony.. he's funny-lame and chitty DM(4 years then Duty Manager) now he is the ADM(Assistant Duty Manager) talk to jasmin a while den she went back to work.. so sweety and i went back up to chill out..

We changed our place to a bigger one.. cos our group was like 12 ppl.. yup.. aft 2 hours.. kath asked me to go find jasmin with her again(smoking break).. so we went off again.. ha! went to use carlton's wash room-- (we always do that when we go back to find jasmin) didn't saw her at the cashier so we ask her colleagues if they knew where she was.. the speedy-ganzales was at cafe Vic havin dinner with Mr Anthony and Francis, she can go anywhere cos.. she is the Assistant Reception Manager.. yup.. talk abit with Mr Anthony and jasmin(gossips).. den aft tt took compilmentry car park coupon & headed to our usual smokin area.. of course not me.. yup both of them.. did some gers talk.. den jasmin went back to work.. kath and I went back up to chill out.. we emptied our glasses.. sweetie left first.. cos he wanted to go Fishing with Han Cheng.

for me, I stayed with the rest.. left the bar.. the guys went thier ways.. cos they were.. haha.. drunk..! so lousy =P we (kath, yh daphne and me) we took cab to Newton Circles to have our Seafood supper. We ordered, Stingray(which was salty), Lala, KangKong, Fried Oyster den we also ordered Gong Gong.. haha.. we finished everything in seconds.. tt's the fastest tym we ate.. cos we were famished..!

well.. I really enjoyed my night with them yesterday.. Thanks gers & guys.. it's been a long time... and once again i was not drunk.. *peace



wat's maurice doin?






guys chilling out



we gers part 1




we gers part 2




we gers part 3




yh and i before leaving the bar



excuse us mauric..we takin picture


more pictures coming..!