it's a wonderful sat for me.. apart from the angry post last night...


at work - i've given a new name for my work place.. north pole.. ha ha.. the air con is so damm cold la these days... due the the wet weather.. yes.. ppl will say.. " why not u jus adjust the temperature..?" sorry i can't the air con is central.. yup.. even if i wear an extr layer i won't help me to get warm.. haha.. lorraine and mei mei also were freezing the week with me.. ha ha.. we would find stuff to do.. and walk around to keep ourselves warm.. brrrr... hope nxt week the weather would get warmer a lil..


at ssdc- when ssdc for my practical lessons today aft work.. took cab down.. not because i was late but i dun wan to be late.. but i was good too.. cos i can book my next few lessons.. sad to say i only can book 2 lessons.. cos the first 2 sat's for Aug is fully booked.. so i can only book lessons aft tt.. oh.. goin to miss driving for 2 weeks.. the taxi uncle was talkin non stop while i was smsing jasmin about the the meet up session on tues... he went so many rounds which made me having headache for a while.. and it cost me almost $15 bucks for tt.. cos he went the extr a rounds.. have a quick bite b4 i start my lessons..


the instructor who took me was the same as last week.. a bit quiet and firm also steady.. and i finally got to drive the new car.. haha.. aft some lesson getting the old cars.. wasn't really used to it at first.. and also got problems changing gears.. but still drove smoothly.. passed my first 13 lessons.. haha.. finally i can go 4th gear nxt mth.. once again excited for my lessons.. counting the days..


aft lessons - on the way out.. i called sweetie to ask where was he.. as planned he suppose to meet me in ssdc but instead changed location we met at the interchange.. well.. it's alright cos he jus reached YCK when i called.. faye also called me.. but hang up the call aft i picked up.. called him back and we chated for 8 mins ++.. well bro.. we have lots to talk bout on tue..


as planned with sweetie.. we headed to Vivo city and sentosa for our goin today.. had dinner at this small cafe in Vivo.. den i suppose to buy a toy for my lil hamster Boey.. but didn't bought anything.. ha ha.. as we walked outside the open area of Vivo.. we saw cable cars.. i was jus kidding to take cable car in.. den sweetie said: ok lor we take cable car.. i was like, are u sure.. cos i can't remember how much it was.. but i came out to be quite a reasonable price..


it was rather romantic... only being us alone for the 1st time goin sentosa apart with the gang.. i wouldn't go much into details la.. cos it's rather private.. but happy to say i really enjoyed myself..


sweetie.. i really enjoyed myself today.. thanks for the laughter the whole night.. i was having cramps jus now.. thanx leh ( Benny says: " No Problem") ha ha our usual reply aft suaning each other.. ok i'll see u in 12 hours time.. loving u with every beat of my heart..

i actually wanted to blog about how happy i was today.. cos i went shoppin and bought stuff.. but i guess forget it.. the happy mood is spoilt by the stupid borther of mine..



seriously.. i rather dun have any slibings.. it's like now.. he dun even bother if i am at home.. what ever do at home is wrong.. with his presence.. seriously.. i rather he stays out of my life and my surroundings.. he's takin every single air tt i breadth too..


hey.. chia weijian.. wat did i do? ya we quarrle 2 mths ago.. and i already step in to talk to u nicely and ask u stuff nicely already.. what's with the F*** attitude.. of bangin stuff and throwing stuff around.. not happy u say la.. daddy didn't teach us to ignor ppl when is talkin to u.. wat now.. treating me like ur enemy.. fine if u dun wanna talk... cos i dun wanna waste my breadth on u anymore from now.. it will kill my living time on earth..


for all... everything is my fault.. u not using computer.. i jus ask if i can use.. u angry.. i get scolding.. and ya everything also i start.. all the scolding is to me.. nagging is alos towards me.. so u tihnk u are a good brother.. well.. F***k.. my 2 close guy frends are even better off den u being a brother.. ask urself wat have u done as a brother to protect ur lil one.. have u ever done things to protect me? the ans is no.. never did u do anything to teach me on my road of growing up.. never did u once ask how was my life.. sometimes i really think am i a passer by to u.. so now i'm a pain in ur eye.. fine.. dun talk to me in ur life anymore., from now.. never start a topic with me.. cos i swear from now this moment.. i will never ever speak a word to u.. not even the start of the alphabet A.. u've tested me tolarance even i initiated to talk to u..


wat u wan is me.. leaving the picture frm ur sight.. well i'm sorry to say.. i'm not married yet.. and i'm sorry to say we are sharing the same room.. i'll be happy if u wan to leave first.. dun shed a tear for me if i leave this world first.. cos it's not worth... i'm no one to u anymore.. scram!


all my frens are good elder ones in the family.. faye is a good brother.... so click with his silbings.. jasmin is a good sista.. everything she does.. or whenever she goes shopping.. she will think of her lil sista.. always on the watch out of her.. tania is a goos sister.. even sometimes she nag about her sister.. grace is a good elder sista.. yinhui is a good sista.. daphne has a very good brother.. always cares for her.. sweetie is a good elder brother.. watchin out for his lil slibings.. why isn't mine like all the above.. i jus need my brother to care for me.. or even be like a frend of mine.. well heck it.. i'm not bother.. i have beautiful and wonderful frends with me.. and tt's enough..

been in my thoughts once again when i was on the bus.. i dunno jus so much to think about suddenly..

it's been since a mth nw when i got attatched.. it's kinda like a dream come true.. everything jus seems so fast through the proceedure of getting to be an item.. it was sweet.. in fact it will be sweet for everyone.. cos havin a crush on someone and wanting him/her to be ur lover someday.. here i am found my other part.. i can never be more thankful to god for making my wish come true.. many love songs have been posted in my blog for the past few postes.. it's always been my fav.. some are new found.. each and every one of it express my feelings or views or even emotions towards this new found love.. i jus feel everything is so new.. again.. now i do things i always used to do like i was 4 yrs ago.. watchin movies more.. goin out on the streets more.. being jus myself more.. i dun have much worries like before.. everything is jus so... relaxed.. when i'm around him...


i'm indeed now deep in my emotions.. and am tearing now.. cos i'm stress...


i know i got to tell me parents my relationship now.. maybe it's a fear and past prints in my mind that my parents will reject or object who i am with.. i in a total lost and fear of loosing this time.. i jus have no courage of starting the topic.. i jus dunno how.. the fear of loosing is there.. how? will they object this time..? i know i'm an adult now.. maybe they won't... i jus dunno wat to do.. will it be a joy to them or will it be a hell to me.. i jus have no answer to that..



sorry sweetie.. i dunno wat to say.. my mind is empty now.. my hands are cold.. my eyes are soaked with tears.. my hands jus can't stop typing.. i so afraid of loosing u now.. i'm so afraid of loosing to fate.. i'm jus afraid... but one thing i'm certian and clear about.. is my love towards you.. it's true and clear...

as planned yesterday.. my weekend was spent with sweetie.... jus the both of us w/out the gang


he met me as usual at my office outside.. but i was attending to the last client of the day.. hmm he called to make appt last min so i tot jus take lor.. anyway it's a simple case.. yup.. i left my office at about 215.. on the way out.. was eating the choclate chip cupcake tt lorraine bought.. haha.. ok.. aft my usual rountine of dropping the letters into the mail-box.. headed to the direction of peace centre.. sweetie was hungry, so we have lunch at the indian stall jus across the road.. he had maggie georang( whatever u spell that) , he also ordered cheese prata.. and i only ate the sides of it.. cos i already had the cupcake and was pretty filled up by that..


we headed off to PS for our movie... we watched the Invisible Target.. the new movie which was launch on 19 Jul.. the movie that has Xie Ting Feng one.. how could i miss his movie xia.. SO HANDSOME.. haha.. ya.. it was rather a comical cum voilent cum touching... ya.. nice to watch.. enjoyed it... it lasted about 2 hours.. it was still early to head off to Fisherman's Village.. so had a stroll around the shopping centre... hmmm.. we reached the place at about 7+ had dinner and we changed places to have a drink.. enjoying the cool weather by the sea.. saw ppl fishing.. enjoying the songs played there too.. it was indeed relaxing... we spent about 2 hours there and decided to take a stroll around the park b4 heading home.. as usual.. we will sit down listening to the songs played on his pulmtop.. we headed home at 1130pm...



sweetie.. thanks for everything yesterday.. i'll keep it a simple ending.. loving u more..

i think it's time to update my week so far..


nothing much happen this week.. it's been a hectic week for me.. so many ppl came to take up our services... and many ppl came to set up company.. one aft another.. i was rushing document for the bank officers and for my clients like mad.. one aft another.. and i broke my own record.. i did 5 incorp documents in one day.. which currently was 4.. hah.. i'm jus talented in multi-tasking. . ha.. but it's damm tiring..

Today.. i did 3 at one shot.. dunno wat's wrong with this week.. i guess cos the 7th mth is coming and it's so called a bad luck mth to set up business.. maybe la.. tt's why all rushing to do tt before the "bad luck mth" comes.. and before i left office jus now.. i was attending to one too.. hmm they are actually old clients so still alright.. oh ya.. tt day edwin the ocbc banker bought cup cakes for me.. haha.. but i shared with lorraine and mei mei.. and we all ratedit a thumbs down haha..

met sweetie on tue... had dinner at LPS.. didn't ate much cos this week was my no rice week.. ya.. den aft tt we walked to esplanade... we almost lost our ways.. walking round in circles around the area of Raffles.. so stupid.. haha.. yup.. sat by the steps of the harbour.. watever u call tt.. talked and laugh.. jus felt tt we had so much to talk about.. like a never ending topic.. =) we left the place around 10pm... and he accompanied me by takin 133.. but i told him to alight at bugis to switched to train.. cos it was very late .. well thanks sweetie.. i appreciated the thought of accompanying me home.. thank you..



den.. yesterday.. we met up too.. but it was an unplanned one.. so ya.. he sms me to ask if my mum was cooking.. so i said: " i already told her to cook porraige for me.." frm den on.. there were no replies.. till the point of time when it was reachin 530.... i sms him again.. to re-confirm if we were meeting.. and he replied " sorry.. was busy with work.. forgot to reply u" (something like that) so i said.. it's ok.. we are already meeting on sat.. den ask i was walking to the counter to pick up the phone.. den i saw a shadow.. and i can sense it was him.. but b4 tt.. i already knew he will come.. cos watever he plan of meeting me.. is confirmed.. so i jus pretended i didn't see.. and he msg to ask if i was busy.. and i replied.. no.. and he said was waiting for me to have dinner.. and with a reply i said was is it gonna do with me.. anyway i saw him in the end.. lame.. ahah.. ya.. anyway.. he always come to my office.. so no surprise.. yup...



sweetie.... today it's our 1 mth anniversay.. well i guess u wanted to make it special.. but u had appts filled up today.. anyway it's alright... cos we have whole line of programms for tomoro.. yup.. thank you for coming to meet me aft ur meeting today.. and thanks for the neckless u bought.. well.. i kinda like.. chose it first.... so ya... anyway i'll put it on with me.. everyday and everywhere i go.. well.. i will never let go ur hands frm day one tt u held it... it's been a sweet memory for this 1 mth.. i know u will have a hectic schdule coming soon.. but u dun have to worry for me.. jus go work.. i'll be fine without meeting cos work if more impt...the road ahead of us is wide and it may be rough.. as long as our hearts are one.. we can walk thru together.. and i'm willing to.. i have alot to say to you.. never ending words.. so many things to say running in my mind.. came and go off so fast.. but.. every hugs and kisses jus express my love to you.. my heart for the love towards you will never stop beating.. pictures of you willl never fade away from my mind.. from the deep bottom of my heart.. you are the one i wanna spend the rest of my life with..

blogging for the second time today..


been wating for the moment for 9 mths.. a decision to end everything frm the past is done yesterday.. a big fat fulls stop to all the horro.. night mares tt i used to have.. i have terminated both lines... it was a relieve.. and yes indeed a heavy stone thrown into the deep sea.


but to no suprise jackson called.. it was a priavte number that he use.. but even though he use a number tt isn't private.. i won't give a damm.. ha! this is wat he said:

Jackson: hello.. meiyi.. jackson here

Meiyi: jackson?? which jackson?

Jackson: Jackson la..

Meiyi: Oh.. jackson.. ok wat u wan

Jackson : Why u terminate the line.. i tot i told u i wan to continue using this line? i called star hub to reactivate and they need ur consent.. it's this more troublesome.. my frends all have my number leh.. no more together also no need to be so jue(heartless) right..... ( blah blah blah)


Meiyi: well.. u can jus go sign another line.. thank you good bye..


i just let him blare everything.. in slience i jus listen.. tt's only wat i said to him and i hang up.. and of course he called again 3 times.. but i nv ans.. cos i dun need to ent him anymore.. i mean.. he can be hearltess why can't I.. this story teach him a lesson.. nv do hearltess stuuf to ppl around you.. wat goes around comes around...


well.. fear tt he might come trouble with me.. but.. we are grown ups now.. i have my beautiful life now with benny..... he has his.. so.. i guess i was a right decision to cut off everything.. but still.. i wish him all the best..


faye.. if he ever calls u.. but i guess not la hor.. haha.. jus say.. thank you for letting me go..

my weekend was fun filled.. haha.. really had a great time..


sat.. as plan with the gang.. was our sentosa trip.. as usual, we met the same time and had our breakfast at harbour front's hawker centre.. i went there with daphne and sweetie.. whom came all the way frm tampines.. can imagine wat time he has to wake up.. wat more the day b4 he reached home at 11+.. hmm thanx sweetie.. yup.. by th e time 3 of us were there.. most of them were alreadyt eating ..haha.. yup.. we sat the same table at tim, jimmy and weiqiang.. as usual they ask me and sweetie to sit one table.. haha.. i guess this will never end.. wait for yinhui and jinxui to come.. aft they had their breakfast.. we took bus in.. yup..


destination reached... tim and i took our the mats.. hmm as u see.. it's always us who will bring.. haha.. den the boys start to strip and ran to play volleyball... so left me there at the moment to wait for the gers.. cos i was already in my shorts and top already.. haha yup.. when to the water den aft tt at 11+ sweetie and i had our walk.. we when to the tower to have a look at the sea view.. relaxed it was.. and hmm sweet too.. ha ha =)

as planned.. we wanted to celebrate b'dae for jimmy.. so we took train out to vivo and bought a cake fo him.. our disappearance took 2 hours.. haha... the sky was dark when we went back.. we had to run back to the beach to set up the cake.. weiqiang and yinhui tried to pull jimmy aside by askin him to play volleyball and go to the sea.. but i guess he saw the cake liao.. no fun.. den ya.. sang the famous song.. den blew the candles.. he was so afraid to go near the cake cos he scared kana sabo.. which i wanted la.. but nobody spotting so i nv.. thinkin back i should have jus done it.. like the one at my b'dae.. haha.. ( ps: remember gers??) the rain came.. waited for about 30mins.. and it was fun again.. haha.. i continued sun tanning with yinhui, daphne.. tim and jimmy.. was singin song with tim too.. wah his new phone so cool.. haha.. most of the songs are the onces i have at home too.. my portable house.. haha.. yup.. den aft tt we play captain's ball.. was great man.. haven't been running tt much aft i graduated frm ite.. but it was a good exercise..



we had our shower aft the boys played soccer.. had our dinner at the same hawker centre.. den headed to mind cafe which i made reservations at the boat quay one.. talked and laugh one the journey there.. we play 2 games.. jenga and some advertisment game.. which i find it interesting.. while playin the game.. there were fire works.. cos i think was the national day preview or something.. didn't get much glims of it.. but sweetie promise me tt we will see the fire works together on national day.. =) i jus love seein fire works.. it's something so romantic to me..


the session of games lasted about 2 hour +.. we all headed home.. i was extrmely tired by then...



sweetie... hmm sorry for wat happen tt day.. i admit i was thinkin of something aft i left mind cafe hmm i was yes indeed in moodless moment.. sorry for making u worry.. but i was also i didn't bear to part.. cos u've been sending me home all the time.. and tt was like.. we had to go seperate ways.. well.. it's alright.. cos i have my frends so ya.. jus miss u tt's all.. well.. i love u

2 sweet things happened to me yesterday...


as i was blogging tt i was sick.. and feeling rotten yesterday.. my dear boy was saying tt he would drop by y house to for a visit.. well.. initially i didn't believe.. cos nobody did tt to me before.. and in the past r/s dey say will come but in the end nv... well.. tt's over..(fulls-stop) well.. i didn't tell him any directions or my unit number of my house.. but he did came in the end.. firstly.. we were talkin on msn and he put himself to busy mode for a long time.. and told me he was tied up with work.. so i tot it's just another say only thingy.. i left offline cos nobody was online to chat with me at tt time.. i was watching tv when all tt happened.. my fone rang and it was him who called.. i went to the room the ans it.. cos it's my habit to.. the conversation went like this


Benny: " wat are u doin.."

Meiyi: " i'm watchin tv lah.."

Benny: " so noisy lower the volume leh..

Meiyi: " loud meh.. i'm in the room leh.."

den out of a sudden.. there was a knock on my door.. i was like.. shit..!

Benny: "hey somebody knocked the door..

Meiyi: " don't tell me u are outside..."

with silence for 5 seconds.. and shockness .. i jus hang up the call without saying good-bye.. left my fone on my dad's writting table and went to the door to see if he's really outside... and i saw him through the door-hole(watever u call tt)... i unlock my door and open it.. with shockness i ask


Meiyi: "why are u here..! your really came!"

Benny: " ya la.. i took 1 hour bus here leh.."


i didn't open the door and my gate was locked


Benny: " hey let me go in leh.. u want me to give ang pao den let me in is it?"

haha.. ya.. i went to take the key and let him in.. but actually i didn't wan to open.. cos i was afraid my dad or brother would come back suddenly.. so ya.. he came in exploring my room and my hamster.. let him see my old photos.. and watched tv.. den talk awhile.. hmm i dun feel sick anymore aft seeing him.. haha.. ya.. he left at 630... cos he has to go back to work.. but even though he has no work.. he also have to leave.. cos i have not let my family know about us.. which will be soon.. yup.. well i forgot to say.. he bought fish porraige for me too.. he was afraid it will be cold when i eat it.. but it was still warm aft he left.. hmm yup.. he made it a sweet ending of the day.. which surprised me.. =)


today.. we met up for dinner as planned cos needed to get a present for my dear ger.. kath.. whoes b'dae is coming.. a day before tania's.. 14 July.. i bought her a Anna Sui perfume.. sharing the cost with novwell.. cos she loves perfume.. i saw my gucci perfume which i wanted to buy.. it's an all time wanted thing in my list but i always forget to buy.. it will be in my list next mth..


sweetie.. thank you for making a trip from tampines to my house jus to see how i was doing doing.. due to my sickness.. no one have gone to the extent of coming to my house & taking time off from work jus to see me.. and it's not a short journey frm tampines to my house and making a long bus trip back again there.. it's really a long journey.. sorry for causing u feeling sick aft tt ... i'm really touched out of the shockness.. and i almost cried aft u left.. i'm thankful of wat u have done.. you've touched me once again.. hmm.. dun wan to say anymore.. cos it's so diff to type everything.. it's all in my heart and mind.. thanks for the sweet ending.. u are not shy anymore.. =) i love you... and u made me feel loved by you.. muack...!

so sick.. having bad cramps.. didn't slept well last night.. it's like a nightmare.. almost cried out in bed.. terrible.. hugging my soft toy so tight..


so bad huh.. yea it was.. woke up this morning with drozy and head was heavy.. god wat's goin on.. saw a doc.. my sickness is controlled..


now my body is feeling the heat again.. listening to songs while i blog.. so bored online.. not much ppl online to chat.. cos it's a weekday.. everyone is working..


my eyes are closing but cannot take a nap if not i can't slp tonight.. hai.. wat a weird person i am..


why can't it be night time now.. so i can really rest.. rest my whole self..



nothing worng with me.. my tear glands are making me cry soon.. why..? dunno la.. i'll be fine..

had dinner a sakae sushi with my gers, Ds and sweetie.. it was an early b'dae celebration for my dear fren tania..

hmm but b4 tt.. sweetie and i had our own outing planned.. we actually plan to jus walked around while waitign for the time to pass.. but he suggested to watch movie.. hmmm.. didn't had any movie in mind.. but ended up with Transformer.. cos we were suppose to watch tt last 2 weeks with the gang.. but didn't in the end.. yup... it was so cool la.. to see so many robots.. wah.. imagine having one standing outside ur block.. hahah.. hmm i guess i'll freak out.. haha.. hmm bumble bee so poor thing.. haiyo.. almost cried at the time he kana freezed.. but i fell asleep for a few mins.. cos hmm.. air con was too cold.. den was a bit tired.. yup.. but over all it's a nice show..

sweetie and i walked over to marina to meet up the tania, DS and cindy who were in the queue already.. den was brought to our seats.. and within 3 mins.. kiyoko came.. and aft 10 mins charmaine came.. had a great meal accompained with much laughter for 2 hours.. we left the place and walked around.. goin frm one shop to another.. guessing the prices of items we saw.. at about 930.. had ice cream.. and den we walked over to esplanade aft tt..


didn't really stayed there for a long time cos the weather didn't allow us.. but i guess everyone was tired already.. we left in separate way aft tt..


sweetie and i waited for cab.. it was a long long long wait.. 30mins for a taxi.. and we called like almost every taxi company.. every number is busy.. and every taxi came is was on call.. i was like wat the hell.. haha.. but luckily we got a cab without booking.. phew..



got home at about 1130.. totally shagged.. and ya.. my sore throat is getting worst.. almost had no voice to talk this morning.. i was like choked.. cannot talk.. hai sad.. dunno wat's wrong with me.. got to get well b4 sat.. cos i'm goin sentosa.. and alot of fun awaits for me.. hmm.. yes..


dear.. every ending of my blog is a msg to you.. well.. we have been spending alot lately.. so we got to reverse and save up.. esp at this time.. cos 1. we have the gang's chalet coming up 2. your have ur dream car u wanna buy by end of the yr.. so as i said no more taxi ok? dun worry for me.. i'll get well fast.. i will regain my voice and my healthy colours of meiyi.. =) let's work hard and save up for the sweet future.. love you..

it's time to update my week..

kinda busy this week.. more and moreppl are setting up bussines in spore.. and my company is having more clients.. well it's good.. cos tt helps my company to make profit and tt will bebefit me too. =)


encountered 1 troublesome client this week.. they are a middle aged couple.. who totally believes 100% in Feng shui.. they rented a unit of office room in my office.. u know they actually counted when is a good day to pay us money and counted when to move in and wat time to move in? the lady was negotiating with my boss to hold the room for them till september.. but it's against the agreement of my office.. cos the most we can hold the room is at least 2 weeks before confirmation.. unless a deposit is paid.. yup.. so was so deh lor.. i can't stand how she talk to lorraine.. having goosebums at my counter.. but luckily it was 2 mins before knock off when the negotiation was occured.. haha so still alright..

in the end she paid the full amount.. hai.. den she go toilet.. tt day the washroom had some problems so it was kinda like flooded and dirty.. so she came back to say.. "haiyo so much water.. luo shui.. no good feng shui.." the husband said: " alot of water good wat." den she kept quiet.. i was like DOTS!.. i issued receipt to her.. kept the cheque and left with Mei Mei.. both of us cannot take it.. haha.. all i can say.. she's a fragil client who needs alot of attention.. and she will confirm complaint alot..


well.. so many kinds of ppl i meet everyday.. very blur ones.. irritating ones.. very mei you nai xing ones.. demanding ones.. but i still like my regular cool clients.. hah.. always nv fail to make me smile at work.. ahahh.. hmm there's this client.. his name is Jason.. he will always cum and find lorriane.. and he knows when is our "free time" and he will cum like from morning till we knock off... sitting in lorriane's office talkin non-stop.. haha.. hmm he's handsome la.. den damm rich.. he bought a $10 over thousand daimond for his gf a couple of months ago.. meimei and i were like WAH!!!!! we also wan. haha.. so rich right... hhaa..
he haven't been coming to our office for about 3 mths already.. yups...


hmm.. nothing much about me this week.. met dear almost everyday last week.. den yesterday attend his frend's wedding.. my flu is not gone yet.. i gues i lack of rest.. tt's why.. goin to rest more for the coming weeks.. if not i'll really collapse.. which i dun wan.. cos i wanna get my $100 attenfance bounus this mth..


all right.. later goin SSDC.. aft tt go city hall to meet my gers.. still not sure where dear goin to meet me.. well up to la ok? i got my MP3 to acc me..


have a good weekend..

it's been about 16 days we have been together.. everyday he left with laughter and smiles without fail.. i'm blessed.. ya passed 2 days was messy for me.. as i blogged about feeling empty and lost.. i dunno what happen.. but now, i'm back on the track of loving him more..


yesterday.. we went east coast.. a place i have in mind.. and he knows it.. i dunno how he dd it.. but he can read everything i'm thinkin.. to relax myself.. it was a peaceful and beautiful night.. we sat on the bench over looking the see and under dark sky... with glittering stars smiling at us.. listening to the sea waves.. how i wish tt moment will jus froze there and time will nv pass.. it was simple but sweet.. i was in his arms and we were talkin about everything and laughing... we were also listening to the songs he played with his phone too.. that moment of time.. was loved..


soon time didn't allow us to stay.. we headed home at 10. sad to part frm him.. but no choice..


Dear, i had a great time last night.. actually anywhere with u around i will be happy.. but last night was diff i dunno.. maybe it's our first time alone at the beach.. sorry that i was not myself pass 2 days.. confusion over my feelings.. but i'm back on track.. i gave u the present i promised.. i guess it was fast too.. haha.. ok nxt time ah.. thanx for ur present too.. =) u brought me to another level of love.. i guess.. by missing u makes me love u more.. and treasure the times we are together.. i dunno wat else to say.. but i'm missing u already.. i miss being in ur arms.. ur hugs.. and tenderness towards me and ur nonsence.. haha.. hmm.. it's alright.. we'll see each other tomoro already.. so ya.. i love u..

thoughts jus kept running thru my mind.. running empty.. running so blank.. i hate to part.. i jus hate it.. the feeling of missing sum1 really hurts and sucked..

i know all is done now is for a better future.. i admit i was tearing.. my heart was tearing too.. i know didn't look at u to say good-bye.. b'cos.. i dun wanna tear even more.. i really missed u..i miss u badly.. and tt proves something to myself.. i really am in love with u..

i switched off my fone str8 aft i board the bus.. nothing in particular.. jus wan to draw myself to the songs playin on the radio.. but my mind jus can't ease with a thought of u.. and my heart can't ease with tearing too.. all the songs on radio jus fit my mood.. jus set the atmosphere for me..



i guess i made u worried for a while.. dun worry.. i'm ok.. i really am.. i know i can't expect u to acc me all the time.. but.. what u have done.. i'm glad and content..


i was not sure if i was ready to give my all to u.. but now.. at this moment i'm blogging.. i'm ready to give my all..



Shania Twain & Backstreet Boys < From this Moment>

< Looking through your eyes - by LeAnn Rimes>

Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes
And describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes

I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly I know
My life is worth while
That's what I see
Through your eyes

Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes

Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever

Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes



dear.. this is the testimontal i left in your friendster... it's a song u sent me and made me feel so touched.. the words are so meaning.. and the words so suit us.. i love you more everyday.. and miss you more as every sec pass through a day.. i've told you before.. this blog is no longer jus about me.. it's about us..

it's 710 now while i'm blogging this.. i dunno.. jus can't slp anymore tot i slept at 2am.. only 5 hours of sleep.. jus feel like typing something..


deepest feelings of feeling lost.. lost sunddenly.. words tt he typed is still in my thoughts.. had heart to heart chat with sweetie.. wel, i'm sorry for being so independent on myself.. i have reasons to that.. i dun wanna fall and not knowing how to recover.. it was a lesson learned.. time will let me depend on u more.. u are someone who can read my mind so quickly.. maybe we are of the same kind.. someone who cares so much and make me smile all the time.. even the simpliest msg u send.. make me smile.. nv smile right from the heart like b4..


u are jus better den the rest in front of u.. u know tt? i'm jus blessed to have u.. and appreciated everything u have done.. our road is still very long.. dun worry.. i will walk with u.. every streets of bitterness and happiness.. a hand tt i won't let go.. god have sent u to release me from the darkness i had.. sweetie.. i'll treasure every moment we have.. time will let me present what i have done for u.. jus wait.. i love u as much as u love me.. i will shower u with my love til the last breadth i have..



ps: dun worry peeps nothing wrong with my r/s.. i'm fine.. dun tag about it..

wah.. wat a day.. shopping wasn't as much as i tot.. cos i cut down alot.. nv really buy everything i like tt i saw.. yinhui controlled me.. haha..

met her 230 pm at far east.. and less den 5 mins we start the shopping both of us bought a pair of shoes liao.. hah.. den we hang around at far east.. looking for her working shoes.. but ended up not finding anything.. den i went to trim my eye brow..

aft tt we went iora.. it's a surprise.. nothing interest me there.. wetn isetan.. got myself a top.. goin to wear on tania's b'dae.. haha.. aft tt hui acc me to buy the present for sweetie.. a watch from 25hours.. yup..


den went bugis had our steam-boat dinner with our gang... haha.. yup.. some went to play pool and my gers and sweetie we went to mind cafe..


left the place at 1130.. caught the last bus.. i'm so tired now..